The Journey 596

Category: Failure

  • History Of The Heart

    In silence, we try to hide our pain, fabricating the reality that we are living in,  just so that we can survive. Moving on seems to be a simple task , but one must go through a series of phases in order move on, which are denial, anger, depression, and finally acceptance.Love is a spell, if it is done correctly it will be a gift, but if it is not it will be a curse.

    A heart that I must put together daily, so fragile and weak. I never cared about any human other than you. You said dreams do not come true, while mine was to speak to you. Cruel creatures trying to awaken my hatred with their actions, but that is not going to happen, because I do not care anymore, besides I think hatred is a weakness.

    Feeling vulnerable, I must retreat for I need to regain my energy so that I can move on with my journey, the journey of 596….

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Admit It, To Proceed

    Seeking knowledge, the ultimate truth and wisdom. Collecting clues, putting the pieces together, trying to figure out why are we blind to the truth. Unable to solve this puzzle, I am puzzled, why are we ignoring the truth, when it is clear.

    The facts are stated, but the challenge lies where the truth is, how can we survive, when we deny the fact that we are doomed, not giving up, but getting ready for the battle. Incapable of recognizing the danger of it all, how hopeless can it be, to move on.

    At the end everything is going to vanish, and then you will remember the life that you were gifted on earth and how you chose to live it, did you live your life happily, depending on your own decisions, or were you pushed around.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Drifting Away…

    Climbing down the stairs to meet the darkness yet again, but this time I cannot feel anything, with a smile that I shall force upon my face to deceive my enemies “sadness and loneliness”.

    My life has become a maze, everything is out of control, this is not what I have planned for, shall I be okay with it, or must I feel sad, for the situation that I was put on, like a crossroad, it drained my happiness and sadness, leaving me with no feelings at all.

    I wrote about everything that I believe in, and everything that have created mixed emotions upon my soul. I do not know what have happened to me, is it my voice that cannot be heard, or is it because of the lack of determination that have caused yet another agony. Coming to think of whether I should be alive, or dead, is it worth it, to live in a world where you just do not care anymore.

    The voices have faded, disappeared, leaving me all alone, helpless, just like friends that never happened, it is a mess, admitting that everything has drifted away from the path that I have built for my future. 

    A change is not a bad thing, but at the same time it has its challenges, no matter where I shall be in life, I will always know how to move on, and accept what has become and what will be.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • A Letter Of Reassurance

    Dear Me,

    I hope that you will find this letter to be comforting and amusing, for the purpose that you have failed to complete, and the dreams that you soon gave up on. A mindset that destroyed who you really are, pushed around by everyone for the sake of the future that is yet to be known, weak and pathetic as you are, never should have been alive, but somehow you managed to survive.

    Hiding in the shadows of cruel creatures who act as though they care about your dreams and future, claiming that everything that they have done was all to ensure your future, stupid as you are, you soon believed and you were about to let go of everything that you have worked for. Hoping that you did not forget about the journal that started pulling you out of the darkness and placing you in your true self, finally you have gleamed. Shining the light on the truth that was concealed, realizing how you were deceived by those cruel people.

    Then you have started to grow, creating your own path, making the choices that suits you the best, setting goals, challenging yourself to reach the final goal. You walked on this road to achieve your dream and eventually reach the final goal. You refused to enter the darkness again, for you were walking in your own path, you are the leader of this journey, your decision is the only decision that counts, because it is your life after all.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Failure !

    A world so beautiful and magnificent, the blue sky coloring the ocean, and the sun lights up the earth, filling it with happiness and joy. When everything disappears into the darkness of the night, the colors disappear, the world is not so happy and joyful anymore, and the creatures are hiding in their homes. A cloak of sadness and pain is worn by the earth, spreading excess of emotions and feelings to ones heart and soul.

    Fighting death for years, trying to overcome the pain, I have got no one but myself to fight back in an endless battle. I can not trust anyone, they are devious and evil. Being alone is what keeps me alive, yet it makes me feel sad.

    The cage frightens me, the guards are restraining me from my freedom, claiming that they are worried about me. I wondered for years why am I imprisoned in this mental state. Held in a cage for years, with guards that are trying to make me commit suicide with their behavior towards me. At the end I escaped and these words I left near the vessel. A story of boy who were left with no other choice but to leave this cruel world in order to rest.

    “There Is Still Hope”