The Journey 596

Category: FEELINGS

  • Unlocking My Mind

    My mind, where the thoughts and imaginations flow accordingly, has somehow collapsed, leaving it empty. The feeling of being unable to complete a task this simple, disturbs my existence, I cannot imagine, literally.

    Closing my eyes, concentrating on unleashing a thought, but without any progress. My life turned upside down, I cannot build up a single thought in my mind, even the imaginations flew out of my head, I have become dull and the worst part is that I am stuck in reality. Being calm and not thinking about the problem helped a lot in recovering my mind, now that I am back to normal, I am entering the darkness to check upon the memories to see what caused this to happen.

    You can overcome anything only if you want to, and you must work hard to unlock your potential.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Dying Is Just An Adventure

    There is a lump in my chest; the doctors say that I will be dying, since it has already spread in my body, but with a smile, I said, “When can I leave earth, and start my new adventure?”

     

    Fooling everyone with my funny personality and sarcastic soul, to conceal the sad truth about my dying soul. It is so painful when you cover up your true feelings with a smile, but at the same time, it is a blessing, for it will make you stronger, and you will learn to move on and be happy in the process.

     

     

    Saying my last words with a sarcastic tone, “who’s ready to finally move on?”

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Fighting My Own Mind !

    This way the creature said pointing towards the room that I will be living in for the rest of my life, in the sanatorium. How easy it is for the creatures to describe my situation as an illness, and that they can cure me.

     

    An illness that requires a brain to stop working and the thoughts to stop overflowing. Closing my eyes, floating in total darkness, a voice that seemed so familiar said, “Beware of the voices, I have warned you before, but you did not listen. This is your mess; you will have to fight this alone.”

     

     

    After the second day, I can no longer tell a dream from reality, the patients around me looked like as if they have found their peace of mind, but in reality, they have lost the battle, and were defeated. The voices haunted me, trying to make me succumb, but that is not going to happen, because I never give up.

     

    Battled the voices for years, and tried everything I could to win the fight, but failed miserably. Knowing that ignoring it is not the perfect solution, but I needed some time to rest, heal the wounds, and come up with an idea to win this battle.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Admit It, To Proceed

    Seeking knowledge, the ultimate truth and wisdom. Collecting clues, putting the pieces together, trying to figure out why are we blind to the truth. Unable to solve this puzzle, I am puzzled, why are we ignoring the truth, when it is clear.

    The facts are stated, but the challenge lies where the truth is, how can we survive, when we deny the fact that we are doomed, not giving up, but getting ready for the battle. Incapable of recognizing the danger of it all, how hopeless can it be, to move on.

    At the end everything is going to vanish, and then you will remember the life that you were gifted on earth and how you chose to live it, did you live your life happily, depending on your own decisions, or were you pushed around.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Dead, But Still Breathing…

    There will be no survivors, everyone is going to die, but the question is when and how.
    A man told me once that the worst thing a human being can go through is being dead, but alive. When someone is suffering from mental disorders, and life becomes a living hell, this victim of society slowly draws himself away from everyone, isolating himself from the real world, depending on his situation, he can either choose to be mad, and forget the past, while still being happy, or he can choose to suffer and experience death in its supreme power, that is to die while you are still alive.
    When your heart fails to comprehend the severe emotions, and you feel the emptiness in your body, then realizing that its where your soul used to be, you become less interested in what others think, not caring about anything or anyone. A goal to just survive until the next day, to experience far greater pain,  and waiting helplessly for it to end.
    Stay positive and live happily, it is okay to be alone, it is not the end of the world, besides, it saves you from a lot of pain.
     ” There Is Still Hope”

  • Unable To Communicate

    Isolated boy haven’t yet seen much of the world, in a house he spent his whole life, dreaming and gazing at the rays of hope. His family were his whole universe, never had he ever dreamed of a family that cares so much about him to the point where he was held a captive.

    The end of the front yard was the limit, crossing over to the next side was so terrifying and scary, that the boy tiptoes whenever he was on duty of watering the plants. “My parents aren’t the ones to blame”,  the boy screamed with anger, pushing himself away from his universe, left stranded in a whole new world, where everyone seems to be having a great time, talking to one another,  communications that seemed so easy and enjoyable. The poor outsider felt uncomfortable and nervous, walking in fear, and talking to himself, looking as though he is mad or has a mental condition.

    The pure conscience of the boy was wounded by the hatred and negativity of the community, feeling sick, couldn’t bear the pain, the poor soul cried until there is no more tears to fall, his eyes drained, and soon collapsed and the world had disappeared.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Cold Storm

    You know  that you are doomed, only when the storm hits, everything becomes clear, the masks will be washed, and then you will remember that non of them really cared about you, everyone is running, trying to stay alive.

     

    You keep lying to yourself that somebody, anybody shall come and save you from your misery, whispering to yourself that everything shall be fine. The humans are cold, even though you try to be happy, they will always find a way to make your life  miserable, friends and family that you thought will always be around to help you, will soon start to forget about you, erasing you completely from their memory.

     

    Loneliness, you only choose this path to either  feel safe, or to think about everything around you, deleting everyone from your life, and keeping only the happy memories to remember when you are sad.

     

     

     

     

  • Drifting Away…

    Climbing down the stairs to meet the darkness yet again, but this time I cannot feel anything, with a smile that I shall force upon my face to deceive my enemies “sadness and loneliness”.

    My life has become a maze, everything is out of control, this is not what I have planned for, shall I be okay with it, or must I feel sad, for the situation that I was put on, like a crossroad, it drained my happiness and sadness, leaving me with no feelings at all.

    I wrote about everything that I believe in, and everything that have created mixed emotions upon my soul. I do not know what have happened to me, is it my voice that cannot be heard, or is it because of the lack of determination that have caused yet another agony. Coming to think of whether I should be alive, or dead, is it worth it, to live in a world where you just do not care anymore.

    The voices have faded, disappeared, leaving me all alone, helpless, just like friends that never happened, it is a mess, admitting that everything has drifted away from the path that I have built for my future. 

    A change is not a bad thing, but at the same time it has its challenges, no matter where I shall be in life, I will always know how to move on, and accept what has become and what will be.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • A Letter Of Reassurance

    Dear Me,

    I hope that you will find this letter to be comforting and amusing, for the purpose that you have failed to complete, and the dreams that you soon gave up on. A mindset that destroyed who you really are, pushed around by everyone for the sake of the future that is yet to be known, weak and pathetic as you are, never should have been alive, but somehow you managed to survive.

    Hiding in the shadows of cruel creatures who act as though they care about your dreams and future, claiming that everything that they have done was all to ensure your future, stupid as you are, you soon believed and you were about to let go of everything that you have worked for. Hoping that you did not forget about the journal that started pulling you out of the darkness and placing you in your true self, finally you have gleamed. Shining the light on the truth that was concealed, realizing how you were deceived by those cruel people.

    Then you have started to grow, creating your own path, making the choices that suits you the best, setting goals, challenging yourself to reach the final goal. You walked on this road to achieve your dream and eventually reach the final goal. You refused to enter the darkness again, for you were walking in your own path, you are the leader of this journey, your decision is the only decision that counts, because it is your life after all.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Failure !

    A world so beautiful and magnificent, the blue sky coloring the ocean, and the sun lights up the earth, filling it with happiness and joy. When everything disappears into the darkness of the night, the colors disappear, the world is not so happy and joyful anymore, and the creatures are hiding in their homes. A cloak of sadness and pain is worn by the earth, spreading excess of emotions and feelings to ones heart and soul.

    Fighting death for years, trying to overcome the pain, I have got no one but myself to fight back in an endless battle. I can not trust anyone, they are devious and evil. Being alone is what keeps me alive, yet it makes me feel sad.

    The cage frightens me, the guards are restraining me from my freedom, claiming that they are worried about me. I wondered for years why am I imprisoned in this mental state. Held in a cage for years, with guards that are trying to make me commit suicide with their behavior towards me. At the end I escaped and these words I left near the vessel. A story of boy who were left with no other choice but to leave this cruel world in order to rest.

    “There Is Still Hope”