The Journey 596

Category: FEELINGS

  • Closure

    T.W.O.T.E

    Chapter: 1214161718

    What is trust? How can one be so stupid, for the repetition of the same sin towards my soul, is wearing me down? Is it simply because of the nature of my heart, that I would think good of everyone, or is it desperation? Another quest shall be taken in order to end the cycle of this misery, towards the Darkness I head, seeking the truth, the ultimate solution that shall put an end to this pathetic situation.

    I am coming home, returning back to the place where I can rest and find peace, going back to the place where no betrayal and no pain can be done. I have come a far way, where I thought I would never ever need to go back, thought of taking every challenge on my way without turning back, but I have failed, and here I have passing through the memories, walking past my achievements that I have conquered, with every checkpoint I reach, the memories play in my head, trying to tell me to move on and never give up, comforting me, asking me to proceed with my journey even though the odds are against me.

    At last, I have reached home, to the safest place on the surface of the earth; the Darkness. The voices started to whisper calming my soul, tending to my wounds. As the process of healing takes time, I ought to think about the obstacle that blocked my path, not only once but many. The curse is an annual event, occurs every year, does not have a fixed date yet it has a great effect upon the soul of I. For the deed that has taken place is far greater for the soul to endure, nor the heart has the capacity to forgive. As soon as I realized that I am becoming one of them I returned back to find closure and then proceed with my path.

  • The End Of Darkness

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    Now that I have severed all bonds; for it is a torture to witness their cruelty. Wandering around peacefully along the endless road of life, shockingly not waiting for the end, but rather looking forward to the future that awaits.

    In my healing process, I have begun meditating to understand life better and to gain peace of mind from all the thoughts that accumulate in my head. Organising the thoughts, ideas that seemed random at first, unable to understand; flowing rapidly one after the other, it was overwhelming. Clarity, the thing that I thought was impossible to achieve, now I know better; only you can decide whether you will be able to achieve something or not. The nightmares have gone, disappeared, but left behind valuable lessons. I will no longer let myself undergo the same mistakes, for it is not their fault alone, I assisted in a way that I could never imagine would hurt me. Kindness, when given to someone that does not deserve it, becomes a victim of their cruelty.

    I have changed, I am no longer the victim. A new chapter shall begin, beautiful lessons will be given that shall help you in your journey of life.

  • A Writer Of Dreams

    A lot of you may wonder how stories are written, and how the writer was able to think or rather create a world of his own with characters, time zone, and a protagonist for that reality with connections between all the characters, we must not forget the epiphany, too. All have their own way of writing stories, or books; for some, the ideas just run through their heads and they write it down in notebooks, and some write based on their real-life experience. I personally prefer writers who write based upon their experience, for it touches the heart right away, and it makes you impatient about what will happen in the next chapter as soon as you close the book.

    A writer of dreams is someone who could come up with all five elements of a story (characters, setting, plot, conflict, and resolution) while daydreaming, or when bored. As remarkable as this, sometimes the writer experiences difficulties in writing all the details of a story all at once, so to make it count, summarizing it into a short essay saves the writer from forgetting the meaning of the story. In books, there are many genres from journals, diaries, drama, horror, mystery, science fiction, etc. For writers of dreams, their books/stories often have signs of sadness which usually fade along the story with hope and faith.

    A single thought complemented with the right imagination, you could create a whole new reality, you just have to let your mind go wild on its own. No harm is done, diving into different realities of your own creation, it is fun….

  • Perception

    Here’s another story from the book, a boy fell from the sky with a powerful vision that ceases their lies and a soul so pure that it feels guilty once their cruelty rises; humans.

    Looking up at the ceiling, the kid wished to never see again. The chandelier blow up, for the sin that he has committed is far greater than the cruelty of those who were shaken off of humanity, and turned into beasts. Beasts that never have thought that someone will be able to witness their true colors and play along. They have mastered the ability of the devil, and like a chameleon, they shift colors to best fit the scenario, or rather to buy the hearts of their own cult.

    The kid’s soul felt guilty for their actions toward him, for he never harmed them in any way, but beasts never really ought to understand the meaning of friendship nor love. The kid played along trying to make a change into their lives, tried to guide them, but in despair, all he got was their cruelty shunning away light that he tried to present to them, a chance for repentance, or rather a new beginning.

    It’s true what they say, with a great gift comes great responsibility, the kid consumed with sadness and sorrow for the cruelty of those who are surrounding him has already manifested into their body and soul. There must be a way to make them see, to what state they have fallen into, and how they became the beasts that they are. The kid for years tried restlessly, but without any progress; however, he never gave up and continued his path, helping those whom are infected by the beasts, those whom have a chance in recovering to their neutral state, cured from any hatred and cruelty, whilst turning to the untreatable patients, trying to come up with a cure; a way to help them return back to the way they used to be, kind and honest.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Soul, Monster and I

    We all have a monster within our bodies, some of which are trapped behind our souls, observing, waiting to regain its strength from the cruel creatures to break free and unleash its full potential. On the other hand, some of us were able to tame these vulgar creatures that are sharing our vessel. The weak humans will be conquered as soon as the monster takes control and unleash the evil that it has gained over the years and soon the soul will be shoved far away into the abyss, scared, shivering, and unable to move; for the power that has been unleashed into the body is the unstoppable wrath of hatred.
    We were born together, we shared every memory the good and bad, whilst the monster favored the bad memories and fed on them and grew faster, and slowly pushing the pure soul away, or rather poisoning it. It reminds the soul of what has been done to it, reminding it of all the cruel things that have happened, blaming the soul for everything. Filled with guilt the soul soon realized what should be done in order to not become weak. At the nursery they were able to identify me for who I am, they saw right through me, they saw the emptiness, they saw the shattered pieces of my beloved soul, and so they waited for me until it was our nap time, to grab me and lock me up in the chamber where they performed their rituals on me, trying to bring my soul back.
    For years they have kept me in the chambers thinking that they will be able to cast the evil spirit away and make my pure soul return back to its vessel; however, their plan never worked and never will, for the monster and I are one.

  • Are You Aware ?

    Are you lost? Not knowing where you are heading, without a plan trying to satisfy your soul, trying your best to forget about everything that is disturbing your peace of mind along with shifting your focus from what you really want to achieve. If you have not got a plan in your head in your head or written somewhere in the future that you are heading towards to, then my friend your absolutely lost. Here are some tips to get you back on track, towards your goal.

    First of all, knowing the state you are in, is crucial to determine whether you are lost or whether you are lacking the motivation to proceed through with your plan. If you do not like the state that you are in, then you will need to think hard about the things that you would like to change in your life and the things that you would like to achieve and see how far you are from achieving it. If you find yourself far away from what you really should be doing then, you will need something to write all of your goals and the things that you would like to change your life. In addition, make your goals as clear and as detailed as possible to help you divide it into tasks that will make it easier for you to track. Furthermore, set priorities and rules to follow so that you will be capable of being more productive. Time management is the key to success, in my opinion, organize your time accordingly, so that it corresponds with your goals, and then implement it into your day to day life. Make yourself a routine and stick with it, it lowers your stress levels and helps you be on the right path, that is your success. Having a routine makes it less of hassle when you try to be productive, for you already have an idea of what you shall be doing. The last tip I have is to stick with your plan and never give up. Do your best and as always work hard and stay motivated.

  • Trying To Change !

    The sand, the cold breeze, and my car, traveling through the desert, nothing on our minds except whether we will be able to survive this adventure.

    It is true what they say about being away from the city away from all the lies that overlap with your soul, I have been hearing them all the time until I also was caught up in my own lies. Surrounded by them my whole life, they meant to be there for me through happiness and sadness; however, it was all part of the lie that I believed that they all are like me, pure-hearted creatures.

    Skipping through the sand leaving behind the trail of lies that I am willing to leave behind and move on. No matter what I do I seem to return back to where it all has begun, and so to counter the mistakes that I have taken with my soul, am going to be free; not letting anything happen to my true believe nor am I going to let anyone disturb my peace of mind.

    Don’t disrespect anybody, don’t let your happiness and self-satisfaction include harassing others whether it is with the bullet like words, or simply by fighting. Using cruelty, in any case, shows how ignorant you are.

  • My Enemy !

    When everything seems to be perfectly in place, the life once again proves you wrong, by an earthquake, elaborating how easily it can crush us. I do not know whether I must cry and give up or should I pick up the shattered pieces of my hard work and continue my journey on this earth. Giving in seems to be out of the question, been called stupid for the limits that they have set me with; however, they have never realized that I have long surpassed their limits. So now my mind is trying to trick me into thinking that I have limits and tries to hold me from achieving certain goals.

    It is disappointing to know that you’ve become your own enemy. Pinpointing the exact location of the problem, the mind. It has been trying to shift my focus from what really matters to the margins of life where I rarely stay, and sadly it has succeeded. Distractions around me noise that I cannot possibly live with nor can I ignore. Creatures trying to ruin my peace of mind, trying to stay relevant in my world, but what they have forgotten is that I need not got the time to waste on them. A moment of shock, becoming aware as to what I have become, I reckon I must take out the journal for repentance and to take away the cruelty from within my soul.

    Sometimes, just sometimes, life can be with you, on your side; trying to help you be a better person and to make you grow. All in all, it is a wonderful life, knowing that there is always room for improvements and trying your hardest to achieve your dreams and goals.

    “There Is Always Hope”

  • Addressing The Problem

    T.W.O.T.E

    Chapter 100 – Repentance 

    Tiredness and emptiness, am I missing something? Have I lost in this game of life, or am I just down the wrong path? Wondering as to where I shall end up, overthinking the circumstances, trying grasp every possible outcome; however neither of what I grasp occur, except for a few minor situations that I was able to dodge, but the rest hit me so hard that it turned my life upside down, spinning in this cycle of life what have I become what am I possibly going to achieve from such a cruel world. The problem remains in my head.

    A mindset that I have to alter, and practices that I must change in order to be what I have always wanted to be. Condemned by the negativity, thinking about the others whilst forgetting about myself, my soul. Shattered into tiny pieces, and then a cry of help from beneath my heart, shivering as the voices started to be clearer and closer. Voices that I have ignored and by so, I no longer know who I am.

    In sadness, the world cried for the soul that never thrived, in tears of great remorse for the dreams that have been slipped away by the cruel creatures who took it upon themselves to destroy others. Monsters that slipped away from their apocalyptic reality and into our world they’ve entered, giving their sins another chance to ruin yet another earth.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • It’s All About Perspective

    A perspective of life that not all are aware of, preoccupied with the stress in their lives, trying to prove to their peers, family, or competition that they are capable. While some are lost in life, in sins and misdeeds they have fallen; thinking that they will feel happy, denying that they need guidance in order to rise again. Ignorant and depressed, the deadly combination that shall not only destroy their lives but the lives around them too.

    Vulgar creatures, blinded from the truth, not that it is hard to comprehend or hard to search for, but to avoid the situation where they face the truth. Getting back to the perspective that was mentioned earlier, it is what I like to call it the perfect dream, for it only consists of happiness and hope. In order to have such a life, first of all, you have to know who you are, then accept it, and from their, you could shape out your life however you like. Acceptance is always the first step, by this I mean you must accept yourself. One more thing to keep in mind is that do not wait for others to accept because not only it will make you confused and empty, you will be a stranger t your own self; doubting every minute that passes by. Once you involve others in order to find acceptance, you live an unpleasant life, to the point where you are clueless and will be hard to find yourself between all that mess that you have created. Think of it as there will be a lot of you who are accepted by different people.

    Therefore, you must come in peace with yourself, only from there, you will be able to see life differently; full of happiness and joy. Continue your journey on this earth, knowing who you are, and above all doing what you love. Acceptance has to come from you, and I am sure that the other creatures will adjust.