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Category: heart
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Nostalgia
“In order to change something in your life, you should start with yourself first”
Events repeating, feeling nostalgic, the cruel creatures have emerged once again to haunt thy righteous soul. Acknowledge the truth, thy predictions were true, wake up, for the sake of thy righteousness, thee must end the cycle once and for all. Who dares wake me from my slumber, the shadow has spoken, piercing through thy heart, taking over the vessel. The shadow burnt with anger, black flames spreading over the world, breaking the masks, ending the play that has been playing for ages. The Shadow spoke again, this time addressing the cruel creatures, thy roles have ended, show me thy true spirit. Everything will change for thou, the shadow told thy righteousness, thou will be able to see their spirits, the cruel creatures cannot hide nor pretend anymore, for thy eyes have witnessed it all.
There Began The Truths That Were Ignored……..
{The Journal 1}
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Plan B ?
A friend once told me, always have a plan B, now it’s not a bad tip, however the context that he used it in is. Lack of loyalty, trust, and respect may cause some conflicts in any relationship. Over the years of trekking through life, I have faced a lot, yet to whomever have wronged me, I had nothing to say nor do except for a smile and trying to grasp their lesson.
It is a story after all, whether you like to be part of it or not, it is up to you. When a chapter ends, a new one begins, and therefore, my dearest friend if you think that your part in my story is done, our memories can never be forgotten, I will cherish them, they are fun memories to be honest, with it’s ups and downs. The good thing about stories is that you can end a characters journey, or make an alternate universe with predictions of what could have happened. For someone that never wore a mask, nor did he ever hated anyone, I want to let you know that I am there for you if you ever needed me, when everyone leaves you. The friends that you brag about, have fun with them while it lasts, later you will know the difference.
Friends are the family that you choose, maybe I got somethings wrong, missed the facts, or simply ignored it.
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A Thank You Note
A rare occurrence, have not figured out the time frame yet, but when it happens I can feel the butterflies in my stomach. To the person who lifted me up as they cross my path, reminding me that anything is possible, to the one who believed in me, when no one else did. The passion ignitor, the spark that leads me towards my passion. To the adrenaline rush, the one who makes me float on the cloud of happiness, this one is for you.
Thank you for everything that you have done, you took it upon yourself to show me the world for what it is, you made me aware of the fact that not all people are real. A great mentor, you were, and therefore, I am forever thankful. I was stubborn, but you never gave up, taught me lessons, gave me hope, guided me towards opportunities, yet I didn’t trust you, but you understood, and so you did not judge me. You even put up with my attitude and gave me a chance, but you knew that I was far from being able to trust again, you simply tried, but I let go. Trust is a strong word and has a high rank, and with that high rank if you have given it to the wrong person you could lose it all, therefore, trust is earned, not given.
For the last time, thank you. Without you enlightening me about life, I would have drowned in a string of lies, and so I am forever grateful for the lessons that you have taught me. They say everything happens for a reason, I used to think that there is no such thing and it is just bad luck, or karma that have mistaken me for someone else. However, Here I am reminiscing about the past, telling the story to the kind soul that saw right through me, saw me for who I really am, and still wanted to be around me.
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Over Planning
As I reached a point where I over plan the things that I have already planned for, jotting down every detail, dividing it into manageable small tasks. Now you may wonder, what am I complaining about, well, an X in my life has a due date and I am aware of the result, yet I still make a snake game out of it, with every direction leads straight to the prize, given that there are a few alterations to the prize, however, it is a win either way.
The sun is fading away behind the mountains, the night is creeping in, and so I must take shelter. Organized my thoughts, refurbished the plan as many times I could until I finally gave in and slept with a smile. Into the realm of thoughts, my soul started to wander joyfully as my body rested, looking for the next step, out mapping the tasks, and looking over the sacrifices that I have to make in order to thrive. Every step along the way, I take in mind the sacrifices I made, and the time it took, irreplaceable time, which keeps me motivated and able to proceed with my journey.
A beautiful morning, fresh air, a bit windy, and the excitement for the journey increased as the air breeze blew through my hair; for the only view I could see is the road that shall take me to the place where X lies.
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The Process…
One step at a time a get closer, one obstacle after the other I fight in order to reach my goal, the final goal. I cannot stop thinking about it, it haunts me that I was drifting away for a long time, distracted, wasting time, not thinking straight, and above all tiring myself on things that do not matter.
I live my life one day at a time, living in the moment grasping all the feelings and all the hard work, creating memories about the journey that I am in, for when I reach the final goal, I want to look back and see the struggle and battle that I took. Believe in the process, do not rush it, work on yourself every day, improve your skills, challenge yourself, and take risks, for a life without struggle cannot make a person thrive and grow. Listen to your heart, open your eyes, and do not bother about those who have nothing better to do than criticize and spread negativity on you. Feed your mind knowledge, and you shall prosper. Only then you will be able to realize that you are your only limit. Do not get carried away with life, do not take life for granted, I am not being pessimistic, I am just saying this because later in your life you will come to regret the things that you could have done but did not get around to doing it because you were busy “enjoying” your life the wrong way, in other words wasting your life.
An important lesson that I have learned, if you are tired, do not quit, but rest. Here I am continuing my journey, walking into a new adventure that shall make me grow and take me closer to the final goal.
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Meddling…
People, what can I say about them, curious creatures, snooping around others lives, not necessarily caring, just to find out your weakness, or how to make you uncomfortable of the choices that one have made.
Meddling with your life, trying to feel good about themselves for they have been manipulated in their past life and so to be fair they are doing the same to others. Doing whatever they can to make me hate them, but what they do not know about me is that no one can manipulate me I am always one step ahead, I can lead you into thinking that you are manipulating me, just to make a joke out of you without you being aware of what is happening.
Stay away from one’s path for not all can ignore your interference, some may hurt you if you try to map out their lives for them, and you will end up feeling regret for making yourself feel worthless.
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It Is Time…
Leaving, I am no longer welcomed here, nor will I let anybody hold me back, I am moving on. I packed my bags, and I am all set to begin a new chapter, or rather start a new story. Moving out is a great experience, it teaches you a lot of skills, and most importantly you mature and grow as an independent individual.
Deciding to ride the rollercoaster of life alone, is a big step that anyone could take; it means depending on yourself in everything, supporting yourself, paying the bills and making the right choices that shall take you closer to your goal. Embarking on a life journey, with a dream in your heart that you are trying to accomplish, and a plan that you are trying to implement into the unpredictable world.
You only know the final aspect of your journey, it is visible to your eyes, but the path that leads you to it is foggy. It is not the destination that is your reward but the lessons that you have learned, and the skills acquired along the way to it. Reaching it is just a bonus, think of it as getting the merit for completing the journey.
“There Is Still Hope”
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We Are Our Own Enemies
A person may find life unbearable, always accompanied by life-shortening feelings; sadness and depression. This unfortunate state that they have reached is caused by either disappointment or making a big deal out of what happened.
Disappointment not only in oneself but also in relationships. The pain that is emitted from disappointment is so harmful that it eats you from the inside out, asking yourself questions that you have no answer for. The ones who hold the answer are those who have disappointed you and those who have already moved on, for they are wicked and treacherous. Your kind soul will suffer a lot if you do not learn how to control your emotions. Disappointment is a great lesson that lets you understand people more, do not make it a lifestyle. Learning from it shall expand your insight into human behavior. It makes you aware of the traps that they lay before you, the lies that slither out of their mouths and the poisonous promises that they spray on your heart. Making a big deal out of something that has passed, and is already in the past, you are just going to hurt yourself and waste your time on something that you cannot change. Pouring pain into your heart, hurting it for something you had no control over; simply put, you are just hurting yourself for nothing.
Life is filled with lessons that make us grow, become stronger, and that will make us unlock our full potential. As a wise man once said, do not imprison yourself in a cage that you have built, and do not create obstacles for yourself. Our thoughts can become our great enemy, if we are yet to control our emotions.
“There Is Still Hope”
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“And So It Begins”
Pacing, I can no longer feel my feet, I am hovering. The thoughts are rising about everything that has or could have happened in the past if only certain events have gone differently; regret, I guess I am still stuck in the past. Drowning, in a series of fictional yet real events, with the imaginative power of a writer, an eyesight of a dreamer, and pain, I have been sucked away from reality. Stranded, in the darkness of my mind, a place where visions have been accumulated.
Watching the visions, continuously one after the other took a toll on my weakened soul, for most events were of great sadness and misery. The curse has returned, I can’t lose now, at least not yet, I have the strength. One more chance, to get myself together, to seek the truth, to do whatever I can to finish my journey, to finally make it, to the end of the tunnel.
I’ve finally made up my mind, I shall no longer hide nor run away from the truth no matter how much I want it to be false, I shall face it, for I can’t tolerate such actions upon my soul. Standing in the abyss of my mind taking in all the pain, feeling it as it tortures my body and wrecks my soul. I will survive, I am not going to back down now, I must rupture the dome of the past and get out of it, for I haven’t reached the final goal yet.
The Journey 596 