The Journey 596

Category: hurt

  • Oh Creatures Beware !

    When everything falls apart, and the world continues to throw its obstacles at you, knowing that you have gone through a lot of pain, but it tries to unleash your potential. Not knowing when to stop, the overwhelming feeling you get when there is nothing to be done, a vast amount of hatred that will start to corrupt you, if not kill you.

    The demons and the voices within myself are planning a revolution in my soul. The chains are getting weaker, I must not succumb to their desires, for it can be lethal not only to myself but also to the creatures whom I still love. Not bothered to let them know how much I love them, for they have decided to let me down several times, while I gave them a few chances to fix what they have destroyed; trust.

    It is too much for my weary head to comprehend, and to endure much pain; it is killing me. Not that the journal is not capable of reducing the pain and enlighten the path once again, but whenever I embed their misdeeds and the pain that they have caused, it is as if I have lost a part of my soul. I shall endure it for now and see if I have the will to channel this massive pain into something that could benefit my body and soul.

    Once again wandering not having a single clue of what these creatures are trying to show my soul neither have I got any clue of the purpose that I must fulfill. However, what I am sure of is that I must reach the final goal no matter how painful the journey is.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Death Awaits….!

    T.W.O.T.E – Writings From The Past

    Chapter 10

    Confused and depressed, wandering on earth searching for clues. Not sure whether it is my soul that I have lost in the days where I was a captive in my darkness or whether it is my purpose in life.

    Not sure what I want nor what I need, as long as I am on this path. I have drifted away from the final goal, for the creatures around me are making me weak, I am devastated; therefore, I have not got much time, I must find what I have lost, to survive this chapter.

    When you do not have something to live for, living seems pointless. I have depended on the ones whom I loved, but they tend to run away or disappear without a warning notice; attached to their evil souls, confused as to what lead them to leave me. I have learned from them that I must not trust anyone, for it will only cause more pain; therefore, staying away from the humans is the only way to survive.

    After years of getting used to the idea of being alone, I cannot believe that they had tried to trick me into letting them into my life when I promised to stay away from the monstrous creatures. Sickness is running through my veins, contaminating my body and ripping apart my organs, tasting blood every time I open my mouth; I am fading.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Begginging Of The Dark Age 

    T.W.O.T.E 

    Chapter 6 

    When the truth is spoken, and the lies start to fade away, there is only room for one more thing which completes the package of any community; doubt.

    In today’s modern world, where the scientists and researchers have come a long way with breakthroughs in education, medicine, nutrition, and in technology. Nowadays, you can do all sort of things with a single device, you can keep track of your  workout, check emails, in other words being productive as many marketing companies sell their smartphones, tablets, smart watches under the name of productivity. Furthermore, the most horrific thing is that everything on this corrupted earth is based upon business, and yes when I say everything I literally mean everything even hospitals/health centres.

    Even though this is a huge misdeed in which humans have stumbled upon, yet I am not surprised for it is why I hid in the darkness for years detaining facts in order to clear the doubt in my heart. “Now now” , whispered the shadow to me, to ease the pain that is triggered by the humans all around the earth. I spoke with a weary voice ” pain is increasing and the darkness has been filled with all their misdeeds, to endure more I must unleash….”. Again whispered the shadow with confidence, “My friend you cannot simply grow without pain, you must learn to move on, and above all never quit” .

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • I’M AWARE !

    Pacing back and forth, thinking about myself and why am I the one who must tolerate their actions, afraid to lose them even though they have already lost me. Tracing my steps back to the point where it has started and what I saw is something that I cannot forgive myself for.

     

    As my soul started to fade, my true self no longer exists, I have exorcised my soul, as they manipulated me with their voices. Aware of what is happening but I chose to ignore the fact that I was being used by them cruel creatures. Thanks to all those whom I have trusted by decided to betray, thanks to those whom I loved but decided to take my soul for granted, thank you for the pain.

     

    Nervous as I mark their names on the graves that I have placed in the darkness, and so it has been decided that I no longer can deal with your cruelty. I guided them to their graves with tears from the pain that they manifested in my heart. Farewell, I am never coming back, you all have been pulling me down, confusing me and above all you have ruined my path; therefore, I am moving on.

     

    I am aware of your spells and tricks, but I chose to ignore your misdeeds for something that you creatures will never understand.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

  • Love, Webs and Spells

    Here is a story about a girl that he loved so much that she was the only thing that he feared the most; feared losing her. He never knew that this girl that he loved would one day make him fall apart, a weakness that he never thought of having. 

    Even though it was a bumpy road, confusing as her demands were questionable but even so he continued to follow her. Am afraid that he really fell for her, and never realised that he entrusted her with a valuable thing that is so powerful; however, if it was to be crushed it will poison his soul thereby disturbing his journey. As her spell clung to his heart, he no longer can control his emotions, as she is now in control of all. Pure hearted, he never thought that there will come a time where the one that he loved would destroy him. 

    Friends, even though she knew how much he cared for her, yet he accepted the offer, for he is under her spell and he did not want to lose her. Suddenly she became so cruel that her honest opinion started to sound more like criticising and teasing. Done with this so called love, and ripped her webs from his heart, leaving his heart pierced, bleeding and taking shelter to recover from the pain and to reform from what he has caused to his soul. 

    Characterising love as a reaper that tortures you before slipping away your soul, a sociopath that needs to be locked away, for it is the core of cruelty.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Oh Mind, Can You Please Rest !

    When the sunsets and the night crawl in, it is a phenomenal experience to those who have a mind that never rests. To some, it is the time to rest and relax, while for the few of us out there who cannot control the flow of their thoughts it means that the wicked yet magnificent process is about to start.

     

    Closing our eyes trying to rest, but the thoughts keep us hanging, getting tired with every second that passes, while our brain fights the thoughts. Weary head unable to rest, thinking and planning, claiming that there is no time to waste, for the goal to be achieved a plan is required. A goal that we must change our plan frequently based on the fact that it reveals before us. Here we are deep inside our heads trying to figure out our next move, failing a couple of times but never quitting. Once again, we have tried to rest but it is all the same, without an answer we cannot possibly rest.

     

    As the night slowly gets darker, the journal has been taken out from its resting place, looking for clues and to assure that everything will be okay. Flipping through the page as we remember the purpose of it all. Eyes fighting to get some sleep, while we resist for the purpose must be fulfilled, the purpose that we have battled the obstacles in order to find it, we cannot simply let go. Therefore, with the journal in our hands the final goal can be reached, a few more obstacle, nothing that we have not battled before or at least until we reach the next step. Closing our eyes once again, as the thoughts start to arise, and the mind to over think the situations; a sound from the heart whispering “To the thoughts that you all have gained from this journey, be gone; for the answers are all within their souls”. An assuring sound that brought peace of mind to our souls, gaining from it the ability to rest our weary heads.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • It Is My Fault !

    When the night crawls in and the memories rise upon those whom have lost in the battle, the pain has begun. Moving on is not an option until they have fully understand what has casued these events to escalate into a whirlpool in which they are trying to escape.
    The pure souls have been slashed with darkness, for their hearts could not understand the deeds of those whom they loved. They have been caught in the cycle of misdeeds upon which they must reform. As they continue to roam the earth with sadness and with the seven deadly sins as their only solution, their darkness consumes not their souls but those who they care about.
    Past, present, and future does not matter if moving on and letting go cannot be achieved; stuck in this cycle with their darkness, poisoned and unable to move on nor can I let go.
    I am drowning, is it my fault that they have been consumed with sadness, or is it my fault that I take everything upon myself. Restless mind constantly thinking about anything and everything around me, a pain I must live with in order to find the purpose of life.

  • The Walk Of Guilt 

    Through the darkness he walked, trying to confront his soul about the deeds that have caused him to suffer. Lost, and consumed by sadness that has poisoned his heart. He fought with his soul, in a battle that no one is capable of fighting, for it can be deadly if you lost.

    In this battle to redeem himself, he channeled the pain and suffering creating an energy so powerful that it lights about the entire darkness. Astonished of the light and what it has revealed before him, filled with guilt as he walked away from the battle; therefore the end was fatal not for him but his soul.  Losing his soul in this battle have created a series of events where sadness and guilt far greater than he has ever endured followed him for the rest of his miserable life.

    Suffering from the consequences of his actions, as he knew that there will always be hope for the righteous; so he decided to walk through his journey with pain, for it is the price that he must pay in order to live peacefully.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Tampering With  Destiny 

    The days pass by, knowing what I know about the future that is yet to be lived, keeping secrets from them, tricking the monsters so that I can survive in this beautiful earth, that was cruel not long ago, but everything has changed.

    I no longer need to clutch upon my poor soul anymore, for I can now leave at an instance, leaving everything behind and moving on to the final goal, that is so dark and hurtful. The dreams have been saved, and the path is being restored. At last, everything is smiling, the ravens are disappearing, and the birds are flying again, filling the skies with peace and harmony. Still walking alone, keeping myself distant from the creatures (humans), walking towards the sun, healing my soul, and achieving the dream.
    Breaking free from the darkness, that painted my life with sadness and depression for years, but how long will it be before it finds me again…

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Spells And Hope

    T.W.O.T.E

    “I have written this short article when they were about to put me under their spell; however, I have managed to break the spell  and escape from their cruelty with the my only strength, hope.”

    They have criticized me, making me look like a coward, but I am not feeling sad nor have I ever hated anyone, it is just that I lost hope in the cruel creatures, they have disappointed me many times.

     

    They say that I am rude, just for giving my opinion, but I will not give up until I prove my point, which you will find out in the near future.

     

     

    My life is mine to choose what path I shall take, I do not require your approval or anyone else’s for that matter, stay away from me.