The Journey 596

Category: miserable

  • Chaos In My Head

    T.W.O.T.E

    October 26th 
    I no longer can tolerate what is going on inside my head, it is crowded, I am screaming inside my head as every thought I had is being processed all at once by my weary brain.

    I can change feelings in an instant, as every feeling is waiting for the right moment to be unleashed, or rather triggered by something/someone, although it may sound like chaos; however it saved me countless of times from being pushed around and being someone whom I am not.

    Surprised  by the fact that I am not the only one who is trying to stay away from the humans; they are also trying to stay away from me. Going back through the books that were written, trying to understand the reason that lead them to distance themselves from me, sadly this does not upset me at all, as this will make me happier than ever: staying away from them cruel creatures. 

  • A Life Of Misery (TWOTE)

    This is a different post, a post build upon my true feelings and pain, I can no longer look at myself, without feeling disgusted, because when I succumbed to the darkness, I have made a promise that I shall never ever show my true colours to anyone, deceiving everyone around me with a fake smile upon my face, and constantly saying I am okay.

    Since the day of moving in to my new environment (the darkness), I couldn’t feel anything but pain, convinced that it is the only way to survive upon this earth. At first I loved how I was so dark and secretive, and the only thing that they know about me is a name, that they must have forgotten since I disappeared. Looking at each one of them, with great anger, a stream of black rays revolving around my soul, trying to take over my body, I didn’t hesitate to leave the earth, for I have thought that it is the end that I have waited for. Thrown on the ground by a guy with red aura shining so bright that for a second I thought that it is emitting heat, lectured and tortured by him, and finally it combined with my soul.

    Everyday is the same filled with sadness and depression, wandering around the country with a huge smile on my face, everyone kept their distance from me, as they thought that I was crazy and dangerous, laughing at the children when I see one, “never grow up” I shouted with a shivering voice. Deceived many with my act,  as it was the plan from the start,  trying to understand the humans and the world. Sometimes I feel as though everyone around me is a threat,and that I must leave A.S.A.P. After years of trying to make it out of the darkness, and come out to the world, and have a second chance with humans, I was disappointed as it lead me back deeper into the darkness, at that moment I have made my decision which was to stay away from the humans, chasing dreams and living my life away from the humans.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Where Am I ?

    Here I am writing yet another story about the lost and dazzled young man, who is yet to find the purpose that will enlighten his world with great joy. Uncertain of everything in life, as everything around him follows the rules of the past. Ignorant creatures follow these rules without realizing that they exist, embedded into their minds as the order or rather the law of the universe.

     

    The same order of events they follow, and never question themselves about the path that they have followed. Ashamed of the humans who follow others, instead of creating their own path. This world has made me so confused that I no longer know who I truly am; in a society where everybody tries to implement their own teachings to one another, until some of us start to wonder and ask questions that no one knows the answer to. The ones who tend to obey have it really good, no questions asked, they just follow what others claim to be the right thing, whereas to us, we would like to understand the things which we are about to do.

     

    When they have failed to support their claims our lives fall apart, and doubt will soon catch up on us, and wreck everything that was once sane to us. So on journey to understand we have taken off, determined to learn and experience life for ourselves, to conquer the doubt, and to reveal that everyone’s path is different but they all lead to the same thing; achieving goals. Therefore, to those who tend to shatter your dreams and tend to spread negativity in your life, only listen but do not believe everything that they are saying, for their comments and cruelty can be of a great use to you on your journey to reach the final goal.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Majestic Tree Called Hope

    In a world that is inhabited by the humans and other living creatures, why is it so hard to trust anyone? Over the years, some have decided to become alone, distancing themselves from the humans, for what they have experienced in the past scarred them; therefore, it haunts them. Those, whom have distanced themselves from the world, travel physically and mentally, trying to understand and comprehend everything that goes around them.

     

    Exhausted and tired, from both their journeys. Beneath the tree of hope, they have decided to rest and regain their strengths in order to continue their journeys, hoping to reach clarity. The tree of hope is a special tree: it helps the individual to find the best temperature and weather for them, so that they can heal faster. Three hours has expired, it is time for the travellers to continue their journeys on this earth.

     

    The traveller did not notice each other on this exhausting journey; it takes all the energy you have in order to proceed. Therefore, you cannot afford to be distracted; every energy that you have is required for this journey to be a success.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Pit

    Here I am once again distracted from the final goal, events that forces me to postpone my dreams and life. Forced to leave my self, my true identity and soul in order to please them creatures.

    We live in a world of sadness, living by the principles of a herd, following instead of creating our own path. Damned by the traditions that filled our heads with negativity and extracted our own creativity and dreams, leaving us confused and lost in this universe.

    Planning to get out of this pit, climbing the walls and every obstacle that is in my way, hoping to be free again, chasing my dreams and walking on my path.

    “THERE IS STILL HOPE”

  • Wanderer

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    Sleepless nights, tired of thinking about what lies ahead, beyond the present. In a journey to understand what really matters in life. As I walk upon this earth trying to comprehend what really cannot be comprehended, my soul travels through the emptiness of my heart seeking answers to help me reach clarity.

    Creatures whom I have distanced myself from have gained my trust once again, yet in doubt I shall remain, for I have experienced a lot of betrayals, so I have learned that I must not expect anything from them creatures; it is the only way to survive. Clutching the ropes of hope firmly to survive in this darkness that is so drastic.

    In a village that I took shelter in, I have come across humans whom are on a journey using only their souls, this type of journey is considered to be extremely dangerous, for it can cost your life if you get stuck in between reality and the realm where spirits and monsters walk the earth.

    Resting my weary head to regain my strength; so that I can continue my journey. Looking at the stars as I try to sleep, for it fills me with hope and it makes me look forward to watching them again the next day, as it is the only thing that keeps me alive other than hope.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Lost Soul 

    A story shall be told about the soul that has been lost. In a cage it has been held, for ages without being missed. It began when a young man filled with happiness reached a crossroad. The decision is difficult. Stressed out and began to fall apart, the young man stayed still for a week, still confused about the choice that he must take.
    From his family and friends, he seeked help,  which they started to direct him towards their dreams that they have failed to reach. A mistake has been made, while seeking help, the young man could not think straight, for his head has been filled with the dreams and goals of the others. Then he walked the earth, trying to understand, and identify the flow upon which he has lost the soul. He started wandering, hoping that he would find his soul. Depression possessed the young man, crushing his heart. Feelings of sadness and pain caused the young man to gain fear of the creatures that roam the earth.
    The young man could not find his soul, so he created his own path that he must walk in order to reach his final goal. A journey far away, beyond anyone’s reach, it is a journey to the conscience seeking answers about the soul that had been lost.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Truth Shall Arise 

    This world is filled with mysteries, among which I am going to unravel. My mind that now I have no control over, the thoughts are rising, it is tiring, I can no longer rest, for it increases when I am trying to rest my weary head. 

    I am back, I will no longer wait, for the dreams are starting to be fulfilled, it is me, who faced the monsters and the cruelty of the unknown creatures whom are hiding beneath the masks of humans. I shall turn off the lights of this world and shining it only on the truth. I shall open the door, for I have hidden myself from the world, but no more. Smoking until my lungs cannot function, and the air gets thinner, my blood is poisoned, my heart is empty, for I have witnessed what no one can endure.  The pain that travels through my veins, it leaves trails of misery and sorrow with its pain.

    I thought that I am going to be safe, if I locked my self in a safe, it is a claim that I am not going to be alright, but towards the final goal I shall proceed to claim the prize for surviving in this reality of Cain. It is a world of misery and sorrow, you cannot find peace anywhere in this world but in your mind; however, it is too late for me now, I am leaving.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • All Events Lead To The Same Result….

    In the darkness, you will never be tired and depressed, you could only feel pain while being restrained; however when you are out there in reality, you will experience a lot of feeling, from which most of these feelings makes you sad and depressed.

     

    If you are still in the darkness and you see a shiny, bright light, do not be tempted, it is a trap, do not proceed, the only thing you will get out of it is a lot of pain. The world has not changed; the creatures are becoming crueler, destroying earth, and creating conflicts, leading to war.

     

    Life can be hard, even though you are trying every trick that you have in order to live and find a purpose in this meaningless world that we live in. I changed and tried to live on this earth happily, but the world has not changed, and all the events in life even though they are different, but they lead to the same result, PAIN.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Lessons From The Past

    The rain washed the pain away, and the days helped in forgetting the sadness. When the sun rises and the heart is filled with hope, and you are able to move on, this is the true strength.

     

    An event so cruel that could ruin your life, if you were not strong. The sadness from such an unfortunate event will haunt you in your dreams until you lose hope, and then you will surrender to the darkness that will capture your soul and torture it. While being imprisoned by the darkness, your conscience will fade away, you will forget all the facial expression. You can break the chains and destroy the darkness, but only if you have the strength to let go, and move on.

     

    So do not let the past hold you back from living your life, continue your journey on this earth. It is just a lesson, you have to learn from it and move on with your life, it is not a the end of the world, do not tend to overthink things, keep on living..

    “There Is Still Hope”