The Journey 596

Category: miserable

  • Dead, But Still Breathing…

    There will be no survivors, everyone is going to die, but the question is when and how.
    A man told me once that the worst thing a human being can go through is being dead, but alive. When someone is suffering from mental disorders, and life becomes a living hell, this victim of society slowly draws himself away from everyone, isolating himself from the real world, depending on his situation, he can either choose to be mad, and forget the past, while still being happy, or he can choose to suffer and experience death in its supreme power, that is to die while you are still alive.
    When your heart fails to comprehend the severe emotions, and you feel the emptiness in your body, then realizing that its where your soul used to be, you become less interested in what others think, not caring about anything or anyone. A goal to just survive until the next day, to experience far greater pain,  and waiting helplessly for it to end.
    Stay positive and live happily, it is okay to be alone, it is not the end of the world, besides, it saves you from a lot of pain.
     ” There Is Still Hope”

  • Unable To Communicate

    Isolated boy haven’t yet seen much of the world, in a house he spent his whole life, dreaming and gazing at the rays of hope. His family were his whole universe, never had he ever dreamed of a family that cares so much about him to the point where he was held a captive.

    The end of the front yard was the limit, crossing over to the next side was so terrifying and scary, that the boy tiptoes whenever he was on duty of watering the plants. “My parents aren’t the ones to blame”,  the boy screamed with anger, pushing himself away from his universe, left stranded in a whole new world, where everyone seems to be having a great time, talking to one another,  communications that seemed so easy and enjoyable. The poor outsider felt uncomfortable and nervous, walking in fear, and talking to himself, looking as though he is mad or has a mental condition.

    The pure conscience of the boy was wounded by the hatred and negativity of the community, feeling sick, couldn’t bear the pain, the poor soul cried until there is no more tears to fall, his eyes drained, and soon collapsed and the world had disappeared.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Drifting Away…

    Climbing down the stairs to meet the darkness yet again, but this time I cannot feel anything, with a smile that I shall force upon my face to deceive my enemies “sadness and loneliness”.

    My life has become a maze, everything is out of control, this is not what I have planned for, shall I be okay with it, or must I feel sad, for the situation that I was put on, like a crossroad, it drained my happiness and sadness, leaving me with no feelings at all.

    I wrote about everything that I believe in, and everything that have created mixed emotions upon my soul. I do not know what have happened to me, is it my voice that cannot be heard, or is it because of the lack of determination that have caused yet another agony. Coming to think of whether I should be alive, or dead, is it worth it, to live in a world where you just do not care anymore.

    The voices have faded, disappeared, leaving me all alone, helpless, just like friends that never happened, it is a mess, admitting that everything has drifted away from the path that I have built for my future. 

    A change is not a bad thing, but at the same time it has its challenges, no matter where I shall be in life, I will always know how to move on, and accept what has become and what will be.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • A Letter Of Reassurance

    Dear Me,

    I hope that you will find this letter to be comforting and amusing, for the purpose that you have failed to complete, and the dreams that you soon gave up on. A mindset that destroyed who you really are, pushed around by everyone for the sake of the future that is yet to be known, weak and pathetic as you are, never should have been alive, but somehow you managed to survive.

    Hiding in the shadows of cruel creatures who act as though they care about your dreams and future, claiming that everything that they have done was all to ensure your future, stupid as you are, you soon believed and you were about to let go of everything that you have worked for. Hoping that you did not forget about the journal that started pulling you out of the darkness and placing you in your true self, finally you have gleamed. Shining the light on the truth that was concealed, realizing how you were deceived by those cruel people.

    Then you have started to grow, creating your own path, making the choices that suits you the best, setting goals, challenging yourself to reach the final goal. You walked on this road to achieve your dream and eventually reach the final goal. You refused to enter the darkness again, for you were walking in your own path, you are the leader of this journey, your decision is the only decision that counts, because it is your life after all.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Oh Life, What Have I Become ?

    I don’t know what is happening to me, I am not the same anymore, I feel different. Everything around me is the same, but me. Life is not so promising anymore, I am not the guy that I used to be, I was able to hide my feelings from everyone, but now I am visible, everyone is looking at me feeling sorry for me, I feel so weak and pathetic.

    Dear creatures can we go back to what we used to be ? I will enter the darkness and be invisible while you continue ignoring me, it is safe this way. I am not good in sharing my feelings with anyone, so it is better for me to stay away from all of you, so that I can feel safe again.

    Vague and unclear the future may be, but with hope and a smile, you shall find a way to survive no matter what situation you are in, there is always a way. The journey continues, towards the final goal I shall walk and proceed to achieve it.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Truth…

    Spreading the word about the truth that is yet to be discovered about my soul, in lies it was covered, buried and hidden away from the creatures. Weak, but acting tough as if there is nothing haunting me, I wonder why I wake up everyday when the only thing that I can feel is sadness and depression.
    Slowly realizing what is really going on, pushed back towards the end of my existence, no where to run, and no where to go. Emotions poisoning my brain, irrational thoughts popping into my head, in regards my situation, it is up to me to decide weather I am going to end, or weather I continue my journey.
    With hope and dreams, I fight and I shall proceed towards the final goal……
                   “There Is Still Hope”

  • Living A Lie

    Everything is falling apart, the world is spinning, where am I, am I still alive. It is a nightmare, looking at the mirror, not being able to recognize yourself, forced to conform or else I will suffer, that is what they claim is going to happen if I standout, and just be who I am.

    Trapped in a vessel that is controlled by the creatures, manipulating and planning every move I make, this time hope seems so vague. Imprisoned in a black dome inside the vessel, emptiness is all I can see. Silence, no voices can be heard other than my own, panicking and filled with fear, I collapsed.

    Thoughts are rising, painting my life with words, that seems more like a code, secrets are about to be told, about the soul, that walked the earth. In a sphere that is so unclear, trapped with all the dreams and fear.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Cursed 

    I am telling a story, of a boy from an era far beyond our on, manipulated by everyone, controlled and tricked into doing things that he didn’t actually thought of doing. Years have passed, struggling to find the true meaning of life and freedom.
    Locked himself in a room that is filled with dreams and goals, poor boy never had the chance to fulfill the dreams of his own, how can he, when he is too busy trying to please others. Lessons of life written in books filled with knowledge and tears, signed at the end with a seal from his soul. Damaged, yet determined to break the curse, he thought of a plan, which involved running away, but before even trying he knew that he couldn’t stand a chance among them cruel creatures. Stayed for ages locked in his room crying and screaming, looking at his dreams and goals, the poor soul faded, the body shrunk and the will have disappeared. Rest in peace my child you shall be avenged, only in time, when everyone can no longer see the truth.
    Giving up sometimes can really be the answer, but only for those who were controlled, it is the beginning of a new life, the path towards the final goal……

                   “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Untold Truth

    In the darkness where our eyes are incapable of witnessing the truth, the demons come so close to ones soul, screwing around and eating what is left of our sanity.

    In sins we have fallen, damaging our pure souls with our selfish actions, which ended up destroying the human race.

    Reasons and proof can no longer be used in this cruel world, it must be their eyes, they can no longer see clearly with all the greed and manipulation that is going on in this world. Demons have taken over the world, building their empire of corruption and injustice in our earth. Blood everywhere of the victims that were caught in the middle of the plans.

    In sadness the world shall be, suffering from the mistakes that they have made, wishing to have died before any of this shall happen. The ice is melting, the war is starting, and soon everything will end by the great flood, that wipes us all out of existence.

    In events that seem so familiar to mankind, yet they cannot seem to remember the past, as they fell right into the trap of their forgotten enemy ( The Devil ).

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Key To Happiness

    Time flies, so if you didn’t get the hang of this world, I feel sorry for you, life can be annoying sometimes, especially when you feel left out, dreaming to be someone who you are not, wanting to be like the others happy and having fun, while you are sitting in your room feeling sorry for yourself, writing and sharing with everyone your experience in sadness so lets get started, shall we?

    I have been looking at life from a perspective that makes your life miserable, it feeds you sadness and depression, and its only the start. It never ends until someone actually realizes the mistake that they have made, which is choosing this concept of living, if you are to be late, you will probably end up in a mental hospital.

    Life is happy only if you are, don’t think about what others are doing or making, start being yourself, be your own work of art, punch the walls to survive, and accomplish your goals. Be yourself, accept yourself, in order to be happy. If you are to accept who you really are, life would be a place where goals and challenges are set and to be accomplished by no one other than you. So stop thinking about what others feel about you, real friends will accept you for who you really are no matter what others feel about you.

    “There Is Still Hope”