The Journey 596

Category: negativity

  • Death Awaits….!

    T.W.O.T.E – Writings From The Past

    Chapter 10

    Confused and depressed, wandering on earth searching for clues. Not sure whether it is my soul that I have lost in the days where I was a captive in my darkness or whether it is my purpose in life.

    Not sure what I want nor what I need, as long as I am on this path. I have drifted away from the final goal, for the creatures around me are making me weak, I am devastated; therefore, I have not got much time, I must find what I have lost, to survive this chapter.

    When you do not have something to live for, living seems pointless. I have depended on the ones whom I loved, but they tend to run away or disappear without a warning notice; attached to their evil souls, confused as to what lead them to leave me. I have learned from them that I must not trust anyone, for it will only cause more pain; therefore, staying away from the humans is the only way to survive.

    After years of getting used to the idea of being alone, I cannot believe that they had tried to trick me into letting them into my life when I promised to stay away from the monstrous creatures. Sickness is running through my veins, contaminating my body and ripping apart my organs, tasting blood every time I open my mouth; I am fading.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • I’M AWARE !

    Pacing back and forth, thinking about myself and why am I the one who must tolerate their actions, afraid to lose them even though they have already lost me. Tracing my steps back to the point where it has started and what I saw is something that I cannot forgive myself for.

     

    As my soul started to fade, my true self no longer exists, I have exorcised my soul, as they manipulated me with their voices. Aware of what is happening but I chose to ignore the fact that I was being used by them cruel creatures. Thanks to all those whom I have trusted by decided to betray, thanks to those whom I loved but decided to take my soul for granted, thank you for the pain.

     

    Nervous as I mark their names on the graves that I have placed in the darkness, and so it has been decided that I no longer can deal with your cruelty. I guided them to their graves with tears from the pain that they manifested in my heart. Farewell, I am never coming back, you all have been pulling me down, confusing me and above all you have ruined my path; therefore, I am moving on.

     

    I am aware of your spells and tricks, but I chose to ignore your misdeeds for something that you creatures will never understand.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

  • Tampering With  Destiny 

    The days pass by, knowing what I know about the future that is yet to be lived, keeping secrets from them, tricking the monsters so that I can survive in this beautiful earth, that was cruel not long ago, but everything has changed.

    I no longer need to clutch upon my poor soul anymore, for I can now leave at an instance, leaving everything behind and moving on to the final goal, that is so dark and hurtful. The dreams have been saved, and the path is being restored. At last, everything is smiling, the ravens are disappearing, and the birds are flying again, filling the skies with peace and harmony. Still walking alone, keeping myself distant from the creatures (humans), walking towards the sun, healing my soul, and achieving the dream.
    Breaking free from the darkness, that painted my life with sadness and depression for years, but how long will it be before it finds me again…

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Chaos In My Head

    T.W.O.T.E

    October 26th 
    I no longer can tolerate what is going on inside my head, it is crowded, I am screaming inside my head as every thought I had is being processed all at once by my weary brain.

    I can change feelings in an instant, as every feeling is waiting for the right moment to be unleashed, or rather triggered by something/someone, although it may sound like chaos; however it saved me countless of times from being pushed around and being someone whom I am not.

    Surprised  by the fact that I am not the only one who is trying to stay away from the humans; they are also trying to stay away from me. Going back through the books that were written, trying to understand the reason that lead them to distance themselves from me, sadly this does not upset me at all, as this will make me happier than ever: staying away from them cruel creatures. 

  • A Life Of Misery (TWOTE)

    This is a different post, a post build upon my true feelings and pain, I can no longer look at myself, without feeling disgusted, because when I succumbed to the darkness, I have made a promise that I shall never ever show my true colours to anyone, deceiving everyone around me with a fake smile upon my face, and constantly saying I am okay.

    Since the day of moving in to my new environment (the darkness), I couldn’t feel anything but pain, convinced that it is the only way to survive upon this earth. At first I loved how I was so dark and secretive, and the only thing that they know about me is a name, that they must have forgotten since I disappeared. Looking at each one of them, with great anger, a stream of black rays revolving around my soul, trying to take over my body, I didn’t hesitate to leave the earth, for I have thought that it is the end that I have waited for. Thrown on the ground by a guy with red aura shining so bright that for a second I thought that it is emitting heat, lectured and tortured by him, and finally it combined with my soul.

    Everyday is the same filled with sadness and depression, wandering around the country with a huge smile on my face, everyone kept their distance from me, as they thought that I was crazy and dangerous, laughing at the children when I see one, “never grow up” I shouted with a shivering voice. Deceived many with my act,  as it was the plan from the start,  trying to understand the humans and the world. Sometimes I feel as though everyone around me is a threat,and that I must leave A.S.A.P. After years of trying to make it out of the darkness, and come out to the world, and have a second chance with humans, I was disappointed as it lead me back deeper into the darkness, at that moment I have made my decision which was to stay away from the humans, chasing dreams and living my life away from the humans.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Where Am I ?

    Here I am writing yet another story about the lost and dazzled young man, who is yet to find the purpose that will enlighten his world with great joy. Uncertain of everything in life, as everything around him follows the rules of the past. Ignorant creatures follow these rules without realizing that they exist, embedded into their minds as the order or rather the law of the universe.

     

    The same order of events they follow, and never question themselves about the path that they have followed. Ashamed of the humans who follow others, instead of creating their own path. This world has made me so confused that I no longer know who I truly am; in a society where everybody tries to implement their own teachings to one another, until some of us start to wonder and ask questions that no one knows the answer to. The ones who tend to obey have it really good, no questions asked, they just follow what others claim to be the right thing, whereas to us, we would like to understand the things which we are about to do.

     

    When they have failed to support their claims our lives fall apart, and doubt will soon catch up on us, and wreck everything that was once sane to us. So on journey to understand we have taken off, determined to learn and experience life for ourselves, to conquer the doubt, and to reveal that everyone’s path is different but they all lead to the same thing; achieving goals. Therefore, to those who tend to shatter your dreams and tend to spread negativity in your life, only listen but do not believe everything that they are saying, for their comments and cruelty can be of a great use to you on your journey to reach the final goal.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Majestic Tree Called Hope

    In a world that is inhabited by the humans and other living creatures, why is it so hard to trust anyone? Over the years, some have decided to become alone, distancing themselves from the humans, for what they have experienced in the past scarred them; therefore, it haunts them. Those, whom have distanced themselves from the world, travel physically and mentally, trying to understand and comprehend everything that goes around them.

     

    Exhausted and tired, from both their journeys. Beneath the tree of hope, they have decided to rest and regain their strengths in order to continue their journeys, hoping to reach clarity. The tree of hope is a special tree: it helps the individual to find the best temperature and weather for them, so that they can heal faster. Three hours has expired, it is time for the travellers to continue their journeys on this earth.

     

    The traveller did not notice each other on this exhausting journey; it takes all the energy you have in order to proceed. Therefore, you cannot afford to be distracted; every energy that you have is required for this journey to be a success.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Pit

    Here I am once again distracted from the final goal, events that forces me to postpone my dreams and life. Forced to leave my self, my true identity and soul in order to please them creatures.

    We live in a world of sadness, living by the principles of a herd, following instead of creating our own path. Damned by the traditions that filled our heads with negativity and extracted our own creativity and dreams, leaving us confused and lost in this universe.

    Planning to get out of this pit, climbing the walls and every obstacle that is in my way, hoping to be free again, chasing my dreams and walking on my path.

    “THERE IS STILL HOPE”

  • The Truth Shall Arise 

    This world is filled with mysteries, among which I am going to unravel. My mind that now I have no control over, the thoughts are rising, it is tiring, I can no longer rest, for it increases when I am trying to rest my weary head. 

    I am back, I will no longer wait, for the dreams are starting to be fulfilled, it is me, who faced the monsters and the cruelty of the unknown creatures whom are hiding beneath the masks of humans. I shall turn off the lights of this world and shining it only on the truth. I shall open the door, for I have hidden myself from the world, but no more. Smoking until my lungs cannot function, and the air gets thinner, my blood is poisoned, my heart is empty, for I have witnessed what no one can endure.  The pain that travels through my veins, it leaves trails of misery and sorrow with its pain.

    I thought that I am going to be safe, if I locked my self in a safe, it is a claim that I am not going to be alright, but towards the final goal I shall proceed to claim the prize for surviving in this reality of Cain. It is a world of misery and sorrow, you cannot find peace anywhere in this world but in your mind; however, it is too late for me now, I am leaving.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Words Like Bullets 

    In a stormy night, a child with hope and motivation arose so high into the sky. Mumbling about his dreams, and then he finally chose his path, a voice from above the skies replied to the doubts in his eyes, and asked of this child to find his soul that he has lost, in order to accomplish his goal.
    The child looked everywhere for his soul, but could not find a clue about the whereabouts of his soul. The child has searched the earth for his soul, but he forgot to search within himself, he forgot to search deep down in his heart and mind where the soul must lie. The child decided to close his eyes and look for his soul in his mind, and then he came across his past, which is full of sadness, he endured the pain, and continued the search for his soul. Into the heart, he has reached to find the cracks that was caused by the pain. Deep down into his heart he found a light, hiding in the darkness behind the walls, scared to encounter the humans ever again.
    Words are like bullets it can either harm you or save you, so before you talk, you must first think about the words that will come out of your mouth, and how it is going to affect the person you are talking to, think twice before you say anything.

    “There Is Still Hope”