The Journey 596

Category: nomad

  • Chaos In My Head

    T.W.O.T.E

    October 26th 
    I no longer can tolerate what is going on inside my head, it is crowded, I am screaming inside my head as every thought I had is being processed all at once by my weary brain.

    I can change feelings in an instant, as every feeling is waiting for the right moment to be unleashed, or rather triggered by something/someone, although it may sound like chaos; however it saved me countless of times from being pushed around and being someone whom I am not.

    Surprised  by the fact that I am not the only one who is trying to stay away from the humans; they are also trying to stay away from me. Going back through the books that were written, trying to understand the reason that lead them to distance themselves from me, sadly this does not upset me at all, as this will make me happier than ever: staying away from them cruel creatures. 

  • A Life Of Misery (TWOTE)

    This is a different post, a post build upon my true feelings and pain, I can no longer look at myself, without feeling disgusted, because when I succumbed to the darkness, I have made a promise that I shall never ever show my true colours to anyone, deceiving everyone around me with a fake smile upon my face, and constantly saying I am okay.

    Since the day of moving in to my new environment (the darkness), I couldn’t feel anything but pain, convinced that it is the only way to survive upon this earth. At first I loved how I was so dark and secretive, and the only thing that they know about me is a name, that they must have forgotten since I disappeared. Looking at each one of them, with great anger, a stream of black rays revolving around my soul, trying to take over my body, I didn’t hesitate to leave the earth, for I have thought that it is the end that I have waited for. Thrown on the ground by a guy with red aura shining so bright that for a second I thought that it is emitting heat, lectured and tortured by him, and finally it combined with my soul.

    Everyday is the same filled with sadness and depression, wandering around the country with a huge smile on my face, everyone kept their distance from me, as they thought that I was crazy and dangerous, laughing at the children when I see one, “never grow up” I shouted with a shivering voice. Deceived many with my act,  as it was the plan from the start,  trying to understand the humans and the world. Sometimes I feel as though everyone around me is a threat,and that I must leave A.S.A.P. After years of trying to make it out of the darkness, and come out to the world, and have a second chance with humans, I was disappointed as it lead me back deeper into the darkness, at that moment I have made my decision which was to stay away from the humans, chasing dreams and living my life away from the humans.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Chronicles Of TWOTE

    -DEMONS AND HUMANS: Even though they are two different creatures, yet sometimes they share the same characteristics.

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    Lost on this earth, unable to keep the promise, distracted by those who tend to play and destroy on earth. In a delusion, I have been stuck, caught by the chains of the devil, and tortured by witnessing the misconduct of humans on earth. Ever since I reached the certain age where I could understand what is going on around me, the wrong crowd tend to find themselves around me. I did not say a word to them other than greeting them. After that, I was quite as if I am not there at all, soon they could not see me; distracted by their deeds of immoral nature. I was watching them studying their nature.

     

    At first, I found it to be amusing to watch them cause trouble and behave like animals but then I came to realize that they have taken their misconduct to a far new level. Witnessing what the humans have done while I was with them, watching. It haunted me for years feeling guilty for what they have caused on this earth, finally I have decided to lock myself, and I have ordered the chains to restrain me from the world. It was the only way to end the sequence of their misconduct, as I assumed that it was my fault that they have awakened their immoral behaviour; however, in different parts of the earth, the humans were still causing trouble, destroying everything in their way.

     

    I hasten to assume that it was my fault, hence why I declared  myself to be the devil, for what I did was unforgivable, I can never forgive myself for what I did; I never tried to stop them but instead I watched them until they became pure evil. Therefore, I took it upon myself to gain knowledge and discover what lies hidden in this universe. I wandered the earth discovering and experiencing new things, hoping that one day I will understand life.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

  • The Majestic Tree Called Hope

    In a world that is inhabited by the humans and other living creatures, why is it so hard to trust anyone? Over the years, some have decided to become alone, distancing themselves from the humans, for what they have experienced in the past scarred them; therefore, it haunts them. Those, whom have distanced themselves from the world, travel physically and mentally, trying to understand and comprehend everything that goes around them.

     

    Exhausted and tired, from both their journeys. Beneath the tree of hope, they have decided to rest and regain their strengths in order to continue their journeys, hoping to reach clarity. The tree of hope is a special tree: it helps the individual to find the best temperature and weather for them, so that they can heal faster. Three hours has expired, it is time for the travellers to continue their journeys on this earth.

     

    The traveller did not notice each other on this exhausting journey; it takes all the energy you have in order to proceed. Therefore, you cannot afford to be distracted; every energy that you have is required for this journey to be a success.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Pit

    Here I am once again distracted from the final goal, events that forces me to postpone my dreams and life. Forced to leave my self, my true identity and soul in order to please them creatures.

    We live in a world of sadness, living by the principles of a herd, following instead of creating our own path. Damned by the traditions that filled our heads with negativity and extracted our own creativity and dreams, leaving us confused and lost in this universe.

    Planning to get out of this pit, climbing the walls and every obstacle that is in my way, hoping to be free again, chasing my dreams and walking on my path.

    “THERE IS STILL HOPE”

  • Words Like Bullets 

    In a stormy night, a child with hope and motivation arose so high into the sky. Mumbling about his dreams, and then he finally chose his path, a voice from above the skies replied to the doubts in his eyes, and asked of this child to find his soul that he has lost, in order to accomplish his goal.
    The child looked everywhere for his soul, but could not find a clue about the whereabouts of his soul. The child has searched the earth for his soul, but he forgot to search within himself, he forgot to search deep down in his heart and mind where the soul must lie. The child decided to close his eyes and look for his soul in his mind, and then he came across his past, which is full of sadness, he endured the pain, and continued the search for his soul. Into the heart, he has reached to find the cracks that was caused by the pain. Deep down into his heart he found a light, hiding in the darkness behind the walls, scared to encounter the humans ever again.
    Words are like bullets it can either harm you or save you, so before you talk, you must first think about the words that will come out of your mouth, and how it is going to affect the person you are talking to, think twice before you say anything.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Lessons From The Past

    The rain washed the pain away, and the days helped in forgetting the sadness. When the sun rises and the heart is filled with hope, and you are able to move on, this is the true strength.

     

    An event so cruel that could ruin your life, if you were not strong. The sadness from such an unfortunate event will haunt you in your dreams until you lose hope, and then you will surrender to the darkness that will capture your soul and torture it. While being imprisoned by the darkness, your conscience will fade away, you will forget all the facial expression. You can break the chains and destroy the darkness, but only if you have the strength to let go, and move on.

     

    So do not let the past hold you back from living your life, continue your journey on this earth. It is just a lesson, you have to learn from it and move on with your life, it is not a the end of the world, do not tend to overthink things, keep on living..

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Chase 

    They have been watching, following me where ever I go, throwing their chains at me thinking that this act will stop me.

    I have been on the path, chasing the dreams, meeting new friends along the way. Although it is never easy to reach your destination, which in my case is the final goal, but there will always be a way. You just have to work hard and believe and above all do not give up.

     

    They are chasing me, warning me about the future that is yet to happen. If you are afraid of challenges then you should lock yourself up in a room, because this world is full of obstacles and I am afraid that you will find it difficult to survive. Life is full of adventures, that will teach you great lessons, but first you must have a goal.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Hope

    I woke up to realize that my life has been just a dream, it is all in my head, in my own reality. A realm that I have total control on and where I can rest  and find peace.

    In reality I was told that dreams do not come true, when in fact they actually do, if you believe in it and work hard for it. Hope has returned to fill my life with Happiness and joy. I must say that the real world without you is just a dark and cruel place. Now that you are here do not leave me at least until I am gone.

    Wandering on earth, exploring the reality that was introduced to me recently, moving towards the goal that I must achieve, crossing paths with other wanderers along the way.

  • A Case Of Schizophrenia

    It started again, the voices in my head, are disturbing me, causing me to lose control. It has been awakened, the voices that will poison my soul, and ruin my heart. Voices that will create conflict between my heart and mind.

    Closing my eyes trying to deal with these voices that are ripping me apart, rapid stream of emotions clashing upon my heart, feeling overwhelmed, bursting into tears and laughing simultaneously. Confused, whether I am mad or not, looking at myself in the mirror, surprised to see that my reflection is the demon within me. It has escaped from its cage, the demon is loose, it is taking over my body.

    Opposite personalities in one body, battling each other in order to take control over my body, who am I ?

    “There Is Still Hope”