The Journey 596

Category: obstacles

  • Vessels: Unwanted Presence

    Vessels: Unwanted Presence

    I thought it will all end, when I am done. Persistent to keep on haunting me, I have got no more ideas nor do I have the power to keep doing this. I thought it will be all over once cut all bonds, but I was wrong, it never really stopped, it was a manipulative trick, trying to lure me in with its voice, guiding me towards something that I cannot understand, except that it drains my soul whenever I get closer. It keeps on talking and the nagging is just unbearable. I ran away from everything and everyone, I am tired, I need to rest and so I bargained the voice to leave at least for a month, surprisingly it honored my wish, and so I was able to finally rest and for a whole month. I slept for a week, after that I started to plan my escape from all this messed up life and start over. I was alone yet I can feel it, always looking over my shoulder, thinking that it will finally collect what is owed.

    I started searching for a house far away from people, I looked in places that are secluded, away from all the house and stores, and there it was, my house, smacked in the middle of nowhere beside a closed gas station surrounded by the desert, it is perfect, just how I like it, no one really stops here, they no that the gas station is out of order, and so I bought the house, and suddenly I started scribbling weird symbols, seemed archaic but what could go wrong I am used to it by now, I think it is back, in anger I resisted and shouted “you gave me a month and it has been only 2 weeks 3 days”, not a word came out, just smiling at myself while continuing the art lessons. The symbols covered the whole floor, and circled the house and gas station. I kept on trying to make it talk but without any progress, it is giving me the silent treatment I guess, not that I am complaining, however due to the life that we shared together, it was not a good sign, it always resulted in me feeling empty and unable to think straight. In addition to not being able to control anything in my life, as if I was in a trance. I continued talking and nagging to it until it finally talked, “You wanted me to leave you alone, well, how are you going to stay sane if I am not there guiding you, think you will be able to survive without my help, now that I know that you are protected, this is farewell”. I had a lot of questions, however, I refrained considering the fact that it will leave me alone, finally I shall live peacefully, and so it left. Finally, I have accomplished my dream, I ended it, and now I can live peacefully away from all the creatures that could talk. The first few weeks were a bliss, everything was the way it should be, I am in control of everything, no more manipulation, no more voices, no more humans. As the years passed by, it returned but could not get to me, fortunately all the drawings, they have created a barrier, protecting me… “protecting us” from what is out there and from it.

  • Hello…Anybody…?

    Does it still work ?

  • Nostalgia

    “In order to change something in your life, you should start with yourself first”

    Events repeating, feeling nostalgic, the cruel creatures have emerged once again to haunt thy righteous soul. Acknowledge the truth, thy predictions were true, wake up, for the sake of thy righteousness, thee must end the cycle once and for all. Who dares wake me from my slumber, the shadow has spoken, piercing through thy heart, taking over the vessel. The shadow burnt with anger, black flames spreading over the world, breaking the masks, ending the play that has been playing for ages. The Shadow spoke again, this time addressing the cruel creatures, thy roles have ended, show me thy true spirit. Everything will change for thou, the shadow told thy righteousness, thou will be able to see their spirits, the cruel creatures cannot hide nor pretend anymore, for thy eyes have witnessed it all.

    There Began The Truths That Were Ignored……..

    {The Journal 1}

  • Meddling…

    People, what can I say about them, curious creatures, snooping around others lives, not necessarily caring, just to find out your weakness, or how to make you uncomfortable of the choices that one have made.

    Meddling with your life, trying to feel good about themselves for they have been manipulated in their past life and so to be fair they are doing the same to others. Doing whatever they can to make me hate them, but what they do not know about me is that no one can manipulate me I am always one step ahead, I can lead you into thinking that you are manipulating me, just to make a joke out of you without you being aware of what is happening.

    Stay away from one’s path for not all can ignore your interference, some may hurt you if you try to map out their lives for them, and you will end up feeling regret for making yourself feel worthless.

  • Trust…

    The Intel I got about them was correct, according to the witnesses that I have questioned. I have to make sure, I want to see for myself if the accusations were true, for I have blindly trusted them. Trust has become worthless, for the humans have become more dangerous than ever, for they believe their own lies. Now, not only they are the dominant species, but each clan is trying to become dominant over the others.


    I am going undercover, infiltrating their clan, investigating, trying to find the truth. Now that I feel like I am becoming one of them, I am disgusted for what I have become in order to seek the truth. How sad, I have figured that even inside the clan no one trusts each other, and so it became clear to me, how low we humans have become. The earth is tainted with greed, and cruelty, trust has become a myth.


    Learn this my fellow human’s trust cannot be given, for it must be earned. It is of great value if you have found the one you could trust, for then life becomes easier because then everything will be shared by the two of you.

  • It Is Time…

    Leaving, I am no longer welcomed here, nor will I let anybody hold me back, I am moving on. I packed my bags, and I am all set to begin a new chapter, or rather start a new story. Moving out is a great experience, it teaches you a lot of skills, and most importantly you mature and grow as an independent individual.

    Deciding to ride the rollercoaster of life alone, is a big step that anyone could take; it means depending on yourself in everything, supporting yourself, paying the bills and making the right choices that shall take you closer to your goal. Embarking on a life journey, with a dream in your heart that you are trying to accomplish, and a plan that you are trying to implement into the unpredictable world.

    You only know the final aspect of your journey, it is visible to your eyes, but the path that leads you to it is foggy. It is not the destination that is your reward but the lessons that you have learned, and the skills acquired along the way to it. Reaching it is just a bonus, think of it as getting the merit for completing the journey.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • We Are Our Own Enemies

    A person may find life unbearable, always accompanied by life-shortening feelings; sadness and depression. This unfortunate state that they have reached is caused by either disappointment or making a big deal out of what happened.

    Disappointment not only in oneself but also in relationships. The pain that is emitted from disappointment is so harmful that it eats you from the inside out, asking yourself questions that you have no answer for. The ones who hold the answer are those who have disappointed you and those who have already moved on, for they are wicked and treacherous. Your kind soul will suffer a lot if you do not learn how to control your emotions. Disappointment is a great lesson that lets you understand people more, do not make it a lifestyle. Learning from it shall expand your insight into human behavior. It makes you aware of the traps that they lay before you, the lies that slither out of their mouths and the poisonous promises that they spray on your heart. Making a big deal out of something that has passed, and is already in the past, you are just going to hurt yourself and waste your time on something that you cannot change. Pouring pain into your heart, hurting it for something you had no control over; simply put, you are just hurting yourself for nothing.

    Life is filled with lessons that make us grow, become stronger, and that will make us unlock our full potential. As a wise man once said, do not imprison yourself in a cage that you have built, and do not create obstacles for yourself. Our thoughts can become our great enemy, if we are yet to control our emotions.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Abandoned Soul

    In a town filled with fakes, wearing masks, hiding their true soul behind the image that the society has created for them. Conforming became the new happiness or otherwise, you shall be shunned. Given choices, none of which the soul truly likes. The soul has been ignored, trying to please others selfish needs, and so the pain became harder to endure, and soon the soul started to give in to hatred.

    Everything feels familiar, the air, the people, and even their actions became so predictable as if you are stuck in a story that repeats itself and never progressing. Fear ended when the soul gave in to hatred. Now that the soul has turned dark, the only way to feel nothing at all, shut down all emotions, and never have the anxiety of what others think about you; is to be true to yourself, find peace with who you really are, and believe in yourself, and as always work hard and do whatever it takes to achieve all your goals.

    Rewriting the story, resetting everything, avoiding the mistakes, and most importantly do not ignore your soul, believe in what you would like to be and do if anything should be ignored is the opinion of the people who never understand and would like everything to go by their rules.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Eternal Herd

    Ignorance is still among those who try to conform, portraying the perfect herd of sheep. Even though each of them was gifted unique characteristics they tend to compare themselves to their peers, forgetting their own uniqueness; and so they try harder and harder to change themselves into something that they are not meant to be, thereby losing their soul in the process.

    Learn about your soul, get to know yourself, find your passion, write down your goals, only then will you be able to unlock all your potential. Forget about the others, do not compare yourself, focus on yourself and your life ahead so that you do not miss out on the things that you could achieve and that will fulfill your soul and satisfy your destiny.

    Mindset is crucial, for it decides whether you will be able to achieve your goals or not. Be positive and above all do not lose hope.

    “There is still Hope”

  • Asylum

    It seems that I am still in the same loop, time is repeating itself, the situation has not changed. Returning back to the asylum, I was given a different cell but the sentence has not changed, I was an accessory in this dilemma where I had to choose between being selfish and selfless, and apparently, I had chosen wrongly, therefore I had been turned into a puppet.

    In quarantine our meals consist of rules, that must be forced into your life, and if you try to violate their rules, you will be embedded with a chip of the rules that you have defied. In here, your soul does not belong to yourself, it belongs to the warden. Everything is slipped away from you, your life, your dreams, and your passion. They are manipulating us, trying to convince us of the privilege that they are offering, making us forget the sacrifices that we made in order for them to gain strength; our souls have been taken.

    Happiness does not ring a bell, is it a myth, or is it a once in a lifetime experience that has not reached me it, and is not sure if it ever will.