The Journey 596

Category: survival

  • I’M AWARE !

    Pacing back and forth, thinking about myself and why am I the one who must tolerate their actions, afraid to lose them even though they have already lost me. Tracing my steps back to the point where it has started and what I saw is something that I cannot forgive myself for.

     

    As my soul started to fade, my true self no longer exists, I have exorcised my soul, as they manipulated me with their voices. Aware of what is happening but I chose to ignore the fact that I was being used by them cruel creatures. Thanks to all those whom I have trusted by decided to betray, thanks to those whom I loved but decided to take my soul for granted, thank you for the pain.

     

    Nervous as I mark their names on the graves that I have placed in the darkness, and so it has been decided that I no longer can deal with your cruelty. I guided them to their graves with tears from the pain that they manifested in my heart. Farewell, I am never coming back, you all have been pulling me down, confusing me and above all you have ruined my path; therefore, I am moving on.

     

    I am aware of your spells and tricks, but I chose to ignore your misdeeds for something that you creatures will never understand.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

  • Love, Webs and Spells

    Here is a story about a girl that he loved so much that she was the only thing that he feared the most; feared losing her. He never knew that this girl that he loved would one day make him fall apart, a weakness that he never thought of having. 

    Even though it was a bumpy road, confusing as her demands were questionable but even so he continued to follow her. Am afraid that he really fell for her, and never realised that he entrusted her with a valuable thing that is so powerful; however, if it was to be crushed it will poison his soul thereby disturbing his journey. As her spell clung to his heart, he no longer can control his emotions, as she is now in control of all. Pure hearted, he never thought that there will come a time where the one that he loved would destroy him. 

    Friends, even though she knew how much he cared for her, yet he accepted the offer, for he is under her spell and he did not want to lose her. Suddenly she became so cruel that her honest opinion started to sound more like criticising and teasing. Done with this so called love, and ripped her webs from his heart, leaving his heart pierced, bleeding and taking shelter to recover from the pain and to reform from what he has caused to his soul. 

    Characterising love as a reaper that tortures you before slipping away your soul, a sociopath that needs to be locked away, for it is the core of cruelty.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Oh Mind, Can You Please Rest !

    When the sunsets and the night crawl in, it is a phenomenal experience to those who have a mind that never rests. To some, it is the time to rest and relax, while for the few of us out there who cannot control the flow of their thoughts it means that the wicked yet magnificent process is about to start.

     

    Closing our eyes trying to rest, but the thoughts keep us hanging, getting tired with every second that passes, while our brain fights the thoughts. Weary head unable to rest, thinking and planning, claiming that there is no time to waste, for the goal to be achieved a plan is required. A goal that we must change our plan frequently based on the fact that it reveals before us. Here we are deep inside our heads trying to figure out our next move, failing a couple of times but never quitting. Once again, we have tried to rest but it is all the same, without an answer we cannot possibly rest.

     

    As the night slowly gets darker, the journal has been taken out from its resting place, looking for clues and to assure that everything will be okay. Flipping through the page as we remember the purpose of it all. Eyes fighting to get some sleep, while we resist for the purpose must be fulfilled, the purpose that we have battled the obstacles in order to find it, we cannot simply let go. Therefore, with the journal in our hands the final goal can be reached, a few more obstacle, nothing that we have not battled before or at least until we reach the next step. Closing our eyes once again, as the thoughts start to arise, and the mind to over think the situations; a sound from the heart whispering “To the thoughts that you all have gained from this journey, be gone; for the answers are all within their souls”. An assuring sound that brought peace of mind to our souls, gaining from it the ability to rest our weary heads.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Thrive !

    Weakness, sadness, and pain I left them all behind; as I smash through the obstacles that life presents before me, testing me, preparing me for the final goal. Thinking about the present and future, planning my every move; recording my life as I thrive.

     

     

    The final goal awaits, overlooking the long way that I must walk; for I am halfway there. A vast number of steps for the final goal to be achieved; therefore, I shall continue down my path, motivating and challenging myself for the final goal. Although sometimes the loneliness and darkness strikes forcing me to succumb and quit, but I still move on and let the wounds heal, for my hope is far stronger and greater than their poison.

     

    Do not let anyone interfere with your goals and dreams, for the only thing that holds you from accomplishing them is only your mind; therefore, do not listen to anybody, for they will only put you down and make you feel bad. Listen to the voice within you that comes from your heart, it shall guide you towards your goals.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Change !

    Away from the negativity and pain, through the fog, we all shall rise, with words of strength that will make us rise towards the goal we have always dreamed of; therefore, to them you must ignore and let go, for their purpose in life is only to make you suffer. Take the sun as an opportunity to shine, rise as the wind blows through your head whilst walking on your path seeking an adventure of a lifetime. Speak your mind without fear to the crowed, for your voice must be heard, as long as you believe in what you said and think that it will cause no harm to any soul around you.

     

    We all have worked hard since day one without giving up so do not give up now; look at yourself and where you have come embrace yourself for the final goal awaits your arrival. In every situation whether it is sad or hard and you feel that you have become weak, search for hope because there is always hope you just have to believe. Say goodbye to the sadness, learn how to move on, and let go for it is the only way, to reach your goal safely. Leave the sadness for the weak, and from the pain gain strength and rise above the obstacles.

     

    With a pure heart move on, in this earth and seek your goal whilst fulfilling your purpose. The journey of sadness is about to end, an era shall come where peace and harmony can be found; however the plan has not changed it will always stay the same until the purpose has been fulfilled.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

     

  • Tampering With  Destiny 

    The days pass by, knowing what I know about the future that is yet to be lived, keeping secrets from them, tricking the monsters so that I can survive in this beautiful earth, that was cruel not long ago, but everything has changed.

    I no longer need to clutch upon my poor soul anymore, for I can now leave at an instance, leaving everything behind and moving on to the final goal, that is so dark and hurtful. The dreams have been saved, and the path is being restored. At last, everything is smiling, the ravens are disappearing, and the birds are flying again, filling the skies with peace and harmony. Still walking alone, keeping myself distant from the creatures (humans), walking towards the sun, healing my soul, and achieving the dream.
    Breaking free from the darkness, that painted my life with sadness and depression for years, but how long will it be before it finds me again…

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Chaos In My Head

    T.W.O.T.E

    October 26th 
    I no longer can tolerate what is going on inside my head, it is crowded, I am screaming inside my head as every thought I had is being processed all at once by my weary brain.

    I can change feelings in an instant, as every feeling is waiting for the right moment to be unleashed, or rather triggered by something/someone, although it may sound like chaos; however it saved me countless of times from being pushed around and being someone whom I am not.

    Surprised  by the fact that I am not the only one who is trying to stay away from the humans; they are also trying to stay away from me. Going back through the books that were written, trying to understand the reason that lead them to distance themselves from me, sadly this does not upset me at all, as this will make me happier than ever: staying away from them cruel creatures. 

  • A Life Of Misery (TWOTE)

    This is a different post, a post build upon my true feelings and pain, I can no longer look at myself, without feeling disgusted, because when I succumbed to the darkness, I have made a promise that I shall never ever show my true colours to anyone, deceiving everyone around me with a fake smile upon my face, and constantly saying I am okay.

    Since the day of moving in to my new environment (the darkness), I couldn’t feel anything but pain, convinced that it is the only way to survive upon this earth. At first I loved how I was so dark and secretive, and the only thing that they know about me is a name, that they must have forgotten since I disappeared. Looking at each one of them, with great anger, a stream of black rays revolving around my soul, trying to take over my body, I didn’t hesitate to leave the earth, for I have thought that it is the end that I have waited for. Thrown on the ground by a guy with red aura shining so bright that for a second I thought that it is emitting heat, lectured and tortured by him, and finally it combined with my soul.

    Everyday is the same filled with sadness and depression, wandering around the country with a huge smile on my face, everyone kept their distance from me, as they thought that I was crazy and dangerous, laughing at the children when I see one, “never grow up” I shouted with a shivering voice. Deceived many with my act,  as it was the plan from the start,  trying to understand the humans and the world. Sometimes I feel as though everyone around me is a threat,and that I must leave A.S.A.P. After years of trying to make it out of the darkness, and come out to the world, and have a second chance with humans, I was disappointed as it lead me back deeper into the darkness, at that moment I have made my decision which was to stay away from the humans, chasing dreams and living my life away from the humans.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Chronicles Of TWOTE

    -DEMONS AND HUMANS: Even though they are two different creatures, yet sometimes they share the same characteristics.

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    Lost on this earth, unable to keep the promise, distracted by those who tend to play and destroy on earth. In a delusion, I have been stuck, caught by the chains of the devil, and tortured by witnessing the misconduct of humans on earth. Ever since I reached the certain age where I could understand what is going on around me, the wrong crowd tend to find themselves around me. I did not say a word to them other than greeting them. After that, I was quite as if I am not there at all, soon they could not see me; distracted by their deeds of immoral nature. I was watching them studying their nature.

     

    At first, I found it to be amusing to watch them cause trouble and behave like animals but then I came to realize that they have taken their misconduct to a far new level. Witnessing what the humans have done while I was with them, watching. It haunted me for years feeling guilty for what they have caused on this earth, finally I have decided to lock myself, and I have ordered the chains to restrain me from the world. It was the only way to end the sequence of their misconduct, as I assumed that it was my fault that they have awakened their immoral behaviour; however, in different parts of the earth, the humans were still causing trouble, destroying everything in their way.

     

    I hasten to assume that it was my fault, hence why I declared  myself to be the devil, for what I did was unforgivable, I can never forgive myself for what I did; I never tried to stop them but instead I watched them until they became pure evil. Therefore, I took it upon myself to gain knowledge and discover what lies hidden in this universe. I wandered the earth discovering and experiencing new things, hoping that one day I will understand life.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

  • The Majestic Tree Called Hope

    In a world that is inhabited by the humans and other living creatures, why is it so hard to trust anyone? Over the years, some have decided to become alone, distancing themselves from the humans, for what they have experienced in the past scarred them; therefore, it haunts them. Those, whom have distanced themselves from the world, travel physically and mentally, trying to understand and comprehend everything that goes around them.

     

    Exhausted and tired, from both their journeys. Beneath the tree of hope, they have decided to rest and regain their strengths in order to continue their journeys, hoping to reach clarity. The tree of hope is a special tree: it helps the individual to find the best temperature and weather for them, so that they can heal faster. Three hours has expired, it is time for the travellers to continue their journeys on this earth.

     

    The traveller did not notice each other on this exhausting journey; it takes all the energy you have in order to proceed. Therefore, you cannot afford to be distracted; every energy that you have is required for this journey to be a success.

    “There Is Still Hope”