The Journey 596

Category: wanderer

  • Weary !

    I don’t know what has happened; it happened so fast. I have changed a lot; I’m no longer the guy you used to know me. Everything seems different, scared of them all, for now, I can see through their souls. The chains that restrained the darkness in me has torn apart unleashing every bit of pain, every bit of sadness that has troubled my soul.

    Enduring such pain and misery can mess one’s soul big time; it can kill all the emotions in you. The smile I faked in the past has changed from hiding the pain to unleashing pain. Once I have started to notice what has happened to my poor soul I pulled myself away from the people I care about scared that I will cause them trouble, even if they were the ones who turned me into a cold, emotionless soul. Surrounded myself by the evil creatures, urging to unleash upon them the wrath of the pain and sadness that they have caused me, but in time they shall all witness before their eyes what pain is. The monstrous creatures cannot endure pain, for only those with a pure heart can withstand such thing.

    Retracing my steps back to where it all began and all I could see is how humans are monsters. Not only they’ve caused pain to my soul, but they’re also trying to pull me into becoming a member of their cult of cruelty. I fled away, can’t trust anyone for they will only threaten my peace of mind. I shall be gone forever, and never come back to those who have tortured my soul with their ongoing misdeeds. Fading away into the void, for I must restrain the darkness with the chains of hope and faith, and lock it away in a place where it shall not find the light.

    “Rest my weary soul, for the time shall come.”

  • No More !

    The Journal

    Chapter 666

    I salvaged myself from the darkness thinking that there is something out there for me, trying to reach out to me, hoping that it will find its way to me. The darkness that I contained myself in, for the harsh, cruel creatures have stabbed me, so many times that I no longer can feel a thing, only anger that I have yet to unleash upon those who have wounded my soul. So cold that whenever they try to wreck what left of my soul, I try to ignore them and never respond. I am guilty of letting myself withstand their actions, for it has wounded my heart and filled it with sadness.

     

    Disappointed with my actions, guilt running through my soul that I have let down so many times, for giving these creatures more chances to wound my soul. I am returning to you, Shadow. I am coming back to where you have left me, to where we have drifted apart. Alongside the high mountain where you have fallen apart, I shall build my bed beside your resting place, for I have missed you, and the world is not like what it used to be. Filled with loneliness and sadness, that is wrecking my wounded soul.

    I cannot tolerate much more pain, or one more wound, for my weary soul has started to fall apart. Restless, since I have broken free from the darkness that has cured my heart and soul in the past, not that I am not ungrateful to what it has done for me but losing my partner and friend made me snap, and so I ran away from the darkness. I am finally returning home, apart from the cruelty of the so-called humans.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Don’t Fall Into The Void !

    T.W.O.T.E

    Chapter 21

    Driven by the flow of life around this dome, here mind functions only to provide or cure wounds by reckless acts. Creatures capable of giving humanity another chance, yet it is now gone for they have fallen deep into the void.

    Knowing what I know about these creatures they have got to fight; merely battle the temptations that they have succumbed to, warning them about the future, but are unaware of the consequences that they leave behind. All of you should be careful around such creatures, for they will drag you into it; pull you to follow their misdeeds.

    I have frequently been asked about the thing which keeps me from leaving this dome, and my answer was that in every corner there is something that intrigues me, something that helps me to realize that there is more to it than what it appears to be. A voice in my head calms my frightened soul, for what it has witnessed; the truth sometimes can create a whole new level of disturbance to the soul. Moving into my next destination where the two seas meet but never merge, one is salty and the other sweet; a new adventure shall begin with it obstacles shall rise, in which I must overcome to proceed towards the final goal.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Oh Creatures Beware !

    When everything falls apart, and the world continues to throw its obstacles at you, knowing that you have gone through a lot of pain, but it tries to unleash your potential. Not knowing when to stop, the overwhelming feeling you get when there is nothing to be done, a vast amount of hatred that will start to corrupt you, if not kill you.

    The demons and the voices within myself are planning a revolution in my soul. The chains are getting weaker, I must not succumb to their desires, for it can be lethal not only to myself but also to the creatures whom I still love. Not bothered to let them know how much I love them, for they have decided to let me down several times, while I gave them a few chances to fix what they have destroyed; trust.

    It is too much for my weary head to comprehend, and to endure much pain; it is killing me. Not that the journal is not capable of reducing the pain and enlighten the path once again, but whenever I embed their misdeeds and the pain that they have caused, it is as if I have lost a part of my soul. I shall endure it for now and see if I have the will to channel this massive pain into something that could benefit my body and soul.

    Once again wandering not having a single clue of what these creatures are trying to show my soul neither have I got any clue of the purpose that I must fulfill. However, what I am sure of is that I must reach the final goal no matter how painful the journey is.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Begginging Of The Dark Age 

    T.W.O.T.E 

    Chapter 6 

    When the truth is spoken, and the lies start to fade away, there is only room for one more thing which completes the package of any community; doubt.

    In today’s modern world, where the scientists and researchers have come a long way with breakthroughs in education, medicine, nutrition, and in technology. Nowadays, you can do all sort of things with a single device, you can keep track of your  workout, check emails, in other words being productive as many marketing companies sell their smartphones, tablets, smart watches under the name of productivity. Furthermore, the most horrific thing is that everything on this corrupted earth is based upon business, and yes when I say everything I literally mean everything even hospitals/health centres.

    Even though this is a huge misdeed in which humans have stumbled upon, yet I am not surprised for it is why I hid in the darkness for years detaining facts in order to clear the doubt in my heart. “Now now” , whispered the shadow to me, to ease the pain that is triggered by the humans all around the earth. I spoke with a weary voice ” pain is increasing and the darkness has been filled with all their misdeeds, to endure more I must unleash….”. Again whispered the shadow with confidence, “My friend you cannot simply grow without pain, you must learn to move on, and above all never quit” .

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • I’M AWARE !

    Pacing back and forth, thinking about myself and why am I the one who must tolerate their actions, afraid to lose them even though they have already lost me. Tracing my steps back to the point where it has started and what I saw is something that I cannot forgive myself for.

     

    As my soul started to fade, my true self no longer exists, I have exorcised my soul, as they manipulated me with their voices. Aware of what is happening but I chose to ignore the fact that I was being used by them cruel creatures. Thanks to all those whom I have trusted by decided to betray, thanks to those whom I loved but decided to take my soul for granted, thank you for the pain.

     

    Nervous as I mark their names on the graves that I have placed in the darkness, and so it has been decided that I no longer can deal with your cruelty. I guided them to their graves with tears from the pain that they manifested in my heart. Farewell, I am never coming back, you all have been pulling me down, confusing me and above all you have ruined my path; therefore, I am moving on.

     

    I am aware of your spells and tricks, but I chose to ignore your misdeeds for something that you creatures will never understand.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

  • Oh Mind, Can You Please Rest !

    When the sunsets and the night crawl in, it is a phenomenal experience to those who have a mind that never rests. To some, it is the time to rest and relax, while for the few of us out there who cannot control the flow of their thoughts it means that the wicked yet magnificent process is about to start.

     

    Closing our eyes trying to rest, but the thoughts keep us hanging, getting tired with every second that passes, while our brain fights the thoughts. Weary head unable to rest, thinking and planning, claiming that there is no time to waste, for the goal to be achieved a plan is required. A goal that we must change our plan frequently based on the fact that it reveals before us. Here we are deep inside our heads trying to figure out our next move, failing a couple of times but never quitting. Once again, we have tried to rest but it is all the same, without an answer we cannot possibly rest.

     

    As the night slowly gets darker, the journal has been taken out from its resting place, looking for clues and to assure that everything will be okay. Flipping through the page as we remember the purpose of it all. Eyes fighting to get some sleep, while we resist for the purpose must be fulfilled, the purpose that we have battled the obstacles in order to find it, we cannot simply let go. Therefore, with the journal in our hands the final goal can be reached, a few more obstacle, nothing that we have not battled before or at least until we reach the next step. Closing our eyes once again, as the thoughts start to arise, and the mind to over think the situations; a sound from the heart whispering “To the thoughts that you all have gained from this journey, be gone; for the answers are all within their souls”. An assuring sound that brought peace of mind to our souls, gaining from it the ability to rest our weary heads.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Change !

    Away from the negativity and pain, through the fog, we all shall rise, with words of strength that will make us rise towards the goal we have always dreamed of; therefore, to them you must ignore and let go, for their purpose in life is only to make you suffer. Take the sun as an opportunity to shine, rise as the wind blows through your head whilst walking on your path seeking an adventure of a lifetime. Speak your mind without fear to the crowed, for your voice must be heard, as long as you believe in what you said and think that it will cause no harm to any soul around you.

     

    We all have worked hard since day one without giving up so do not give up now; look at yourself and where you have come embrace yourself for the final goal awaits your arrival. In every situation whether it is sad or hard and you feel that you have become weak, search for hope because there is always hope you just have to believe. Say goodbye to the sadness, learn how to move on, and let go for it is the only way, to reach your goal safely. Leave the sadness for the weak, and from the pain gain strength and rise above the obstacles.

     

    With a pure heart move on, in this earth and seek your goal whilst fulfilling your purpose. The journey of sadness is about to end, an era shall come where peace and harmony can be found; however the plan has not changed it will always stay the same until the purpose has been fulfilled.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

     

  • Tampering With  Destiny 

    The days pass by, knowing what I know about the future that is yet to be lived, keeping secrets from them, tricking the monsters so that I can survive in this beautiful earth, that was cruel not long ago, but everything has changed.

    I no longer need to clutch upon my poor soul anymore, for I can now leave at an instance, leaving everything behind and moving on to the final goal, that is so dark and hurtful. The dreams have been saved, and the path is being restored. At last, everything is smiling, the ravens are disappearing, and the birds are flying again, filling the skies with peace and harmony. Still walking alone, keeping myself distant from the creatures (humans), walking towards the sun, healing my soul, and achieving the dream.
    Breaking free from the darkness, that painted my life with sadness and depression for years, but how long will it be before it finds me again…

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Chaos In My Head

    T.W.O.T.E

    October 26th 
    I no longer can tolerate what is going on inside my head, it is crowded, I am screaming inside my head as every thought I had is being processed all at once by my weary brain.

    I can change feelings in an instant, as every feeling is waiting for the right moment to be unleashed, or rather triggered by something/someone, although it may sound like chaos; however it saved me countless of times from being pushed around and being someone whom I am not.

    Surprised  by the fact that I am not the only one who is trying to stay away from the humans; they are also trying to stay away from me. Going back through the books that were written, trying to understand the reason that lead them to distance themselves from me, sadly this does not upset me at all, as this will make me happier than ever: staying away from them cruel creatures.