The Journey 596

Tag: sadness

  • Death Awaits….!

    T.W.O.T.E – Writings From The Past

    Chapter 10

    Confused and depressed, wandering on earth searching for clues. Not sure whether it is my soul that I have lost in the days where I was a captive in my darkness or whether it is my purpose in life.

    Not sure what I want nor what I need, as long as I am on this path. I have drifted away from the final goal, for the creatures around me are making me weak, I am devastated; therefore, I have not got much time, I must find what I have lost, to survive this chapter.

    When you do not have something to live for, living seems pointless. I have depended on the ones whom I loved, but they tend to run away or disappear without a warning notice; attached to their evil souls, confused as to what lead them to leave me. I have learned from them that I must not trust anyone, for it will only cause more pain; therefore, staying away from the humans is the only way to survive.

    After years of getting used to the idea of being alone, I cannot believe that they had tried to trick me into letting them into my life when I promised to stay away from the monstrous creatures. Sickness is running through my veins, contaminating my body and ripping apart my organs, tasting blood every time I open my mouth; I am fading.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • I’M AWARE !

    Pacing back and forth, thinking about myself and why am I the one who must tolerate their actions, afraid to lose them even though they have already lost me. Tracing my steps back to the point where it has started and what I saw is something that I cannot forgive myself for.

     

    As my soul started to fade, my true self no longer exists, I have exorcised my soul, as they manipulated me with their voices. Aware of what is happening but I chose to ignore the fact that I was being used by them cruel creatures. Thanks to all those whom I have trusted by decided to betray, thanks to those whom I loved but decided to take my soul for granted, thank you for the pain.

     

    Nervous as I mark their names on the graves that I have placed in the darkness, and so it has been decided that I no longer can deal with your cruelty. I guided them to their graves with tears from the pain that they manifested in my heart. Farewell, I am never coming back, you all have been pulling me down, confusing me and above all you have ruined my path; therefore, I am moving on.

     

    I am aware of your spells and tricks, but I chose to ignore your misdeeds for something that you creatures will never understand.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

     

  • Love, Webs and Spells

    Here is a story about a girl that he loved so much that she was the only thing that he feared the most; feared losing her. He never knew that this girl that he loved would one day make him fall apart, a weakness that he never thought of having. 

    Even though it was a bumpy road, confusing as her demands were questionable but even so he continued to follow her. Am afraid that he really fell for her, and never realised that he entrusted her with a valuable thing that is so powerful; however, if it was to be crushed it will poison his soul thereby disturbing his journey. As her spell clung to his heart, he no longer can control his emotions, as she is now in control of all. Pure hearted, he never thought that there will come a time where the one that he loved would destroy him. 

    Friends, even though she knew how much he cared for her, yet he accepted the offer, for he is under her spell and he did not want to lose her. Suddenly she became so cruel that her honest opinion started to sound more like criticising and teasing. Done with this so called love, and ripped her webs from his heart, leaving his heart pierced, bleeding and taking shelter to recover from the pain and to reform from what he has caused to his soul. 

    Characterising love as a reaper that tortures you before slipping away your soul, a sociopath that needs to be locked away, for it is the core of cruelty.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Oh Mind, Can You Please Rest !

    When the sunsets and the night crawl in, it is a phenomenal experience to those who have a mind that never rests. To some, it is the time to rest and relax, while for the few of us out there who cannot control the flow of their thoughts it means that the wicked yet magnificent process is about to start.

     

    Closing our eyes trying to rest, but the thoughts keep us hanging, getting tired with every second that passes, while our brain fights the thoughts. Weary head unable to rest, thinking and planning, claiming that there is no time to waste, for the goal to be achieved a plan is required. A goal that we must change our plan frequently based on the fact that it reveals before us. Here we are deep inside our heads trying to figure out our next move, failing a couple of times but never quitting. Once again, we have tried to rest but it is all the same, without an answer we cannot possibly rest.

     

    As the night slowly gets darker, the journal has been taken out from its resting place, looking for clues and to assure that everything will be okay. Flipping through the page as we remember the purpose of it all. Eyes fighting to get some sleep, while we resist for the purpose must be fulfilled, the purpose that we have battled the obstacles in order to find it, we cannot simply let go. Therefore, with the journal in our hands the final goal can be reached, a few more obstacle, nothing that we have not battled before or at least until we reach the next step. Closing our eyes once again, as the thoughts start to arise, and the mind to over think the situations; a sound from the heart whispering “To the thoughts that you all have gained from this journey, be gone; for the answers are all within their souls”. An assuring sound that brought peace of mind to our souls, gaining from it the ability to rest our weary heads.

     

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • All Events Lead To The Same Result….

    In the darkness, you will never be tired and depressed, you could only feel pain while being restrained; however when you are out there in reality, you will experience a lot of feeling, from which most of these feelings makes you sad and depressed.

     

    If you are still in the darkness and you see a shiny, bright light, do not be tempted, it is a trap, do not proceed, the only thing you will get out of it is a lot of pain. The world has not changed; the creatures are becoming crueler, destroying earth, and creating conflicts, leading to war.

     

    Life can be hard, even though you are trying every trick that you have in order to live and find a purpose in this meaningless world that we live in. I changed and tried to live on this earth happily, but the world has not changed, and all the events in life even though they are different, but they lead to the same result, PAIN.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • Drifting Away…

    Climbing down the stairs to meet the darkness yet again, but this time I cannot feel anything, with a smile that I shall force upon my face to deceive my enemies “sadness and loneliness”.

    My life has become a maze, everything is out of control, this is not what I have planned for, shall I be okay with it, or must I feel sad, for the situation that I was put on, like a crossroad, it drained my happiness and sadness, leaving me with no feelings at all.

    I wrote about everything that I believe in, and everything that have created mixed emotions upon my soul. I do not know what have happened to me, is it my voice that cannot be heard, or is it because of the lack of determination that have caused yet another agony. Coming to think of whether I should be alive, or dead, is it worth it, to live in a world where you just do not care anymore.

    The voices have faded, disappeared, leaving me all alone, helpless, just like friends that never happened, it is a mess, admitting that everything has drifted away from the path that I have built for my future. 

    A change is not a bad thing, but at the same time it has its challenges, no matter where I shall be in life, I will always know how to move on, and accept what has become and what will be.

    “There Is Still Hope”

  • The Untold Truth

    In the darkness where our eyes are incapable of witnessing the truth, the demons come so close to ones soul, screwing around and eating what is left of our sanity.

    In sins we have fallen, damaging our pure souls with our selfish actions, which ended up destroying the human race.

    Reasons and proof can no longer be used in this cruel world, it must be their eyes, they can no longer see clearly with all the greed and manipulation that is going on in this world. Demons have taken over the world, building their empire of corruption and injustice in our earth. Blood everywhere of the victims that were caught in the middle of the plans.

    In sadness the world shall be, suffering from the mistakes that they have made, wishing to have died before any of this shall happen. The ice is melting, the war is starting, and soon everything will end by the great flood, that wipes us all out of existence.

    In events that seem so familiar to mankind, yet they cannot seem to remember the past, as they fell right into the trap of their forgotten enemy ( The Devil ).

    “There Is Still Hope”